I already have two boys. I have my ultrasound in a few weeks (16 weeks atm) and I'm dreading being told its a boy.
This will be our last child so there are no more dreams after this.
Since everyone has found out about my pregnancy, my family and close friends have been saying 'Oh I hope it's a girl!'. My mother in law has said it, my sis in laws, my mum. Even my husband really wants a girl this time. It's like if it's a boy, I'm letting everyone down and disappointing myself.
Everyone in my family have mixed families and I feel so hard done by. My sister and my 2 brothers all have daughters and sons. My friends have one of each. Ever since I was young I'd only ever wanted girls so each time I was told I was having a boy, I was very disappointed.
This pregnancy feels different. I've been slightly more sick, I've gone off chocolate and coffee which I didn't do with my other pregnancies so although I know it's not always the case, I'm hopeful that its because this one is a girl.
I really don't know how I'm going to deal with it if it's a boy. Even from now, I'm dreading the scan but wishing it would come quickly too.
I just wanted to write this down as I'm sure people here will understand my feelings.