Dreamsofisis, I think like you I am even maybe more sad that I have a strong preference. It makes me feel horrible, like what is wrong with me. Isn't a mother just supposed to be happy no matter what. It had made doubt myself and have all sorts of questions that I wish I never had to find the answers to. I am sorry you are going through GD too, and hope it all fades immediately when you meet your new little boy. Thank you for listening.