Well ladies, we are done. We are moving on from the adoption. With Vietnam not working out, we have now investigated almost every program I can think of. We decided we needed to really reshape our expectations either of what the child will look like, how old she will be, where she will come from, how long it will take, how much it will cost, and we realized that we really aren't ready to budge on those things. So, we decided to move on from international adoption, I have now called 30 domestic agencies and all but 2 will not allow gender selection. The 2 that will made me a little uncomfortable. Everywhere we turn, there is another closed door, we have just come to the conclusion that this is not meant to be right now. I am a Christian, and I am sure that God has a plan, and he knows better than us right now what we need, but I still don't understand why all of this has happened, all the way back to losing our daughter, having terrible pregnancies, and now a failed adoption.
Honestly though, I feel a huge relief right now, I had become so obsessed with all of this, and it takes up a huge amount of time invstigating and researching, so now I can just have fun with my boys and move on for a while. I will still check in here and can't wait to hear everyones good news, and maybe someday I will share some of my own, but for now we are moving on. Good luck to all of you who have more stamina than I do!!
Erin