Hello!
I´m a 37 year old woman (from Sweden) with 2 boys, soon to be 3 (in July). A few weeks ago I found out I was waiting my third boy. I never thought I would react like I did. I just burst into tears and filled with such anxiety. We´d tried Shettles and were sure of having a girl.
Now I feel a bit better but I can´t help thinking of having a daugther one day. That´s what keeping me going right now. I must say I feel very guilty of having thoose thoughts. Ofcourse I love my children you all know that, but I feel less worth because I don´t have one of each gender.
I hate comments like "hope you´ll get a girl this time" I just say I want the child to be healthy. But that´s a lie. Ofcourse I WANT a girl. Already I´m thinking what to say ,once the baby is out, to defend me and my family for having another boy. In Sweden it´s not very common to find out in advance what gender the child is. So now I just say that we don´t know the gender. We did found out the gender just so I would be able to get used to having another boy (just in case it was another boy...and it was).
Anyway I´ve been looking around and want to try high-tech. I know you can do it in US, Thailand and Rainsbury in London, but it seems soooo expensive. It´s ok if I´ll get pg the first try but if not.....
I´m very interested in going to the AVA clinic in Russia since it´s the nearest to Sweden. But I don´t know if they are any good. They use PGD with FISH. What is the different between Microsort and FISH or is it the same? I don´t want to end up with another boy.
My DH was happy with our 2 boys, but wanted me to have a girl so we tried a third time. Before we knew it was a boy I said I don´t want more than 3 kids...but now I want 4 if that is a girl. My DH is sad because it´s not a girl, only because that´s making me so unhappy right now.
(I hope you all understand my writing although I don´t always have the right vocabulary and "feelings" behind the words).
Thank you all for beeing so supportive with one another. I just LOVE this site and it´s making me stronger feeling I´m not alone nor an alien for having these thoughts.
Lots of LOVE to you all Anna