So here’s a little bit of background… I already have one ds and although I would love to give him a little brother, I would also love to have a little girl. Both my ds and dh are hoping this baby is a girl as well. My MIL has also told me we had better give her at least one granddaughter (she has four grown boys, and no girls).
I went in for my anatomy scan today 19w+2 with every intention of finding out the baby’s gender, but when the sonographer asked if we wanted to see the “potty parts and know if it’s a boy or a girl” I freaked out. My heart leapt into my throat and before my dh could say anything I blurted out no!! My hubby looked at me like I was crazy because all I’ve been able to talk about for the past few weeks is old wives tales, biorhythms, and the gender of our baby! Being the great guy that he is, he went along with my crazy change of heart, no questions asked. I asked the sonographer to take a potty shot picture and write out whether she thought it was a boy or girl, but to not say anything. She turned off the t.v. monitor while she probed around for a bit and printed our picture. She even was kind enough to put it in a folder for us, so we wouldn’t accidentally see it, but could open it if/when we wanted to.
Now I’m sitting at home staring at that folder like it is going to spontaneously combust. I’m so torn between whether or not I want to open it. This is strange for me, because my whole pregnancy I have been dead set on knowing the gender asap, but now I’m having a mini panic attack just thinking about it. Am I crazy? Has anyone else ever felt like this?
born March 2009
#2 due November 2012