Well this was unexpected...

I am glad I found this forum, for me, it was a consolation that I wasn't alone when I had DD#3 and went through GD HARD!!! Everyone kept telling me to be happy she was healthy and I am (even more so now that we've lost 3 boys), but you all know that feeling of heavy loss of not getting DG. It was nice to be able to aire those feelings.

As for discarding, when we worked with GIVF we were going to donate ours to infertile couples or testing, but we never got the chance. With the clinic we used here, we wanted to give our girls to 2 couples we knew but again, never got the opportunity since I had nothing viable to freeze since all of them were abnormal or unfreezable. (That's very upsetting to me).

It's a personal choice, our family was ticked that we weren't going to use them all ("but they're ALL MY GRANDCHILDREN!!!") and I wrestled with knowing someone else would be raising MY child when in theory, it should have been me! but it's not an issue for us. If in the future it is, I will probably freeze them (I can't give them away in MA apparently and my insurance company requires freezing) and figure out what to do when we get to that bridge.

You guys are just so awesome! I can't thank you enough for the support. Unfortunately, it looks like it might be a lot longer that I'll need that support than what I'd hoped. :-( I found out yesterday that this pregnancy was ectopic. They gave me a shot of methotrexate to "dissolve" the pregnancy and of course, the doc told me she'd rather I not go to Cancun with my family. This is so not how I wanted to start my vacation. That said, I've done my research and I'm going anyway. I found a hospital just 20 minutes from our resort just in case anything gets hairy while I'm out there and it appears to be a good place. This shot makes me feel like crap, so I may as well feel like crap on the beach next to clear blue waters rather than at home in my bed. Apparently, most docs recommend 2-3 months of rest cycles before proceeding with TTC again, because this med works by completely depleting your folic acid stores. So I guess, the one open tube I have is wide enough for sperm to get through, but not wide enough, or working enough, for fertilized eggs to get through. :-( I will be back on the IVF+PGD train as soon as the doc says I can be. Argh!!!

(((HUGS))) try to enjoy what you can of your holiday, I know it wont be easy but rest up so that you can bounce back from this and jump into the cycle that's gonna work :)

I had my tubes tied after my 4th boy. Oh how I wish there was someone available like you, willing to donate female embies. I have contacted a couple places that specialize in embryo adoption and they all say that I cannot specify the gender. [:'(]

I just don't understand! I was a traditional surrogate in the middle of my 4 boys and they (intended parents) got a girl. I hope someday I get mine too!

 Well, I made it back from my vacation, and am having weekly blood draws until my HCG drops back down to zero.  I keep putting off scheduling the follow up with my doc, but I guess it's just best that I get off my pity party bus and get back on the IVF/PGD train.

 I will be following everyone here...every bit of success I see from others is encouragement.  :-)

 

 

Mymadori welcome back! Good luck to you and I hope everything is back on track soon as you're ready.

I have 3 male embryos left from my ivf cycle that I'd love to donate to someone..but I wouldn't even know where to start..

@mymadori I'm so glad you are healing and getting back on the wagon. May both of our next cycles bring us our dreams.

Welcome back and I'm so, so sorry. Once you feel up to it, get busy doing what you can for the next try, I swear it's what's kept me sane these last 3 months. I actually had someone ask me how my twins were, and I cheerfully answered I would let them know once they got here!

Just want to let everyone know, the Pity Party Bus if FULL! NONE of us are allowed to board it!!! Besides walking is good for the mind and body! :) That and I need more women to join me on my path and journey. We'll get there, we will!!!

Tinks, you are so right! I met with my fertility doc this past Thursday. Unfortunately, as of last week, my beta was at 24, not zero yet. Also, because of the methotrexate used to treat the ectopic, the docs won't do an egg retrieval until September. (3 months from metho shot) So here's the plan. I need to continue weekly blood draws til I see a beta of 0. In the meantime, I'm on DHEA and CoQ10 for egg improvement After I get AF back, I need to go in for day 3 blood draws, and have another HSG, saline hysteroscopy and tons o' blood work. With the next cycle after that one, I may be able to get started, as long as it's after the middle of August. We'll do a luteal estrace prep again (can't do bc pills because of the clotting issues i have) with MDL Flare protocol (because of high FSH and low AMH) They're maxing me out to 300 menopur and 300 bravelle...and adding in growth hormone- Saizen, during stims Then we'll do a day 5 biopsy and a frozen transfer, which won't take place until probably November. It feels like a huge mountain, part of me is absolutely dreading it, but a part of me is a little excited- hoping and praying I can have success this time. What does your go forward plan look like? I'm gonna need some cycle buddies. :-)