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I just found out my little sister is having a girl. I find myself not wanting to talk to her to look at her and I kind of glad Im not talking to her because I really dont think I can deal with her happiness while Im stuck in this misarable black hole I call my life. I really dont want to see the baby either but at the sametime it's my niece.

This must be so hard for you. It's perfectly normal to feel resentful of your sister, especially after all of the loss you've had. I commend you on trying to keep your "black hole" attitude away from her, however, she's your sister and if your close I'm sure she can tell you're hurting. Speaking openly to her and saying something like, "Im so happy for you, I'm just In a funk right now and I'm trying to deal with it..." is both an honest and gentle approach to let her know you're still there but need some space. Hopefully as you vent openly on these boards you will gain more strength to move forward and feel better (in time) about the situation. I really hope that you take it easy on yourself and allow yourself time to come to terms with this. All my best...

it really helped me when my daughter died. my sister had this 4 month old baby boy. while i thought i would be so jealous i made myself go over there because it was better then being alone. omg that little boy cheered me up so much. he was so little and snuggly. and i could just hold him and love him. when they are that small who cares about gender anyway, but gosh he really made me feel better.

   my sister and i stopped talking when she found out i was pregnant again, not sure why. i think she thinkis i have too many but recently shes really been helpful. she even offered to take 2 of mine since im in preterm labor. but i think the babys death took alot out of her. i kinda went numb and just cried all day so she took over and planned the funeral and made all the arragments. i don't know what i would have done without her.