Can't believe I was EVER disappointed!

I've taken so long to write this post as I've been slack but I'm here now..... When I found out my baby was a boy at our 20 weeks u/s (almost 2 years ago mind you) I was shattered, I cried on & off about it for days. I was really hoping for a girl and I was so disappointed. The second he was born I fell absolutely in love with him. He is my whole world and I feel so extremely guilty for having ever felt & behaved that way and I worry that he felt my sadness and disappointment in the womb and that makes me feel horrendous :( We are trying to conceive baby number 2 & at the start I was swaying for a girl as I still dream /yearn for that baby daughter however recently I have thrown it all in. I would love a girl but ive decided that I want her to join our family of her own accord and should I conceieve another son then thats what im supposed to have. I really am happy to let nature take it's course and yes I will be heartbroken if I don't have a baby girl BUT I will be absolutely overjoyed at the priveledge of having another amazing boy to love which I'm sure will fill my heart with wonderment & amazement yet again :) Finally in the perfect frame of mind to get my bfp....yay! I hope everyone that had or will experience gd will eventually end up feeling as happy as I do :)

 Thank-you for taking the time to post this lovely story  You are so positive and that is fantastic. I truly believe there is something special about little boys  ...I too always longed for a daughter and went on to have 2 sons (currently pg with DS2). I think after finding out I had another on the way and after DH and I have said this may very well be our last - I was heartbroken to be honest. Took a few weeks to heal properly but now I am more than pleased that my DS1 will have a special brother to play with/ grow up with and we will be blessed again. 

 I too, hope that others will heal as we have xx

Thanks for replying carmella. I dont even know how it happened. One minute I was adament I was going to do everything possible to sway for a girl and then something just clicked. I know I will still be sad if I never get a girl but somehow it just doesnt seem to really consume me like it used to. I can imagine my little man having a beautiful baby brother to play with, bond with & adore. The thought of that makes any sort of gd obselete. I just really want to be pregnant again so bad. I cant wait for af to arrive on the weekend so that Dh & I can bd like crazy and make our next little miracle! Good luck with your baby boys x

Thanks for sharing!   We swayed for a dd and had ds3.  I PRAYED the whole time ttc and my whole pregnancy until the gender ultrasound that if we were having ds3 that i would not have GD again.  Thank God my prayers were answered because I surprisingly had my tubes tied during my csection (long story) and can never have another baby.  I would have been devastated if I had GD during my last pregnancy ever.  You never know what curve balls life will throw you so try to enjoy your blessings as they come  I truly believe that God gives us the little souls that belong in our families regardless of gender.  Good luck

Thanks for sharing prayingforaprincess. We are very fortunate to be surrounded by our beautiful children thats for sure. xxx