thank you so much everyone, it really is a comfort to know so many people care. i just love you all! good news is im still pregnant! i got checked last night. still dialted to 3cm. i did not like the new on call doc. she was very rude and basically told me i was going to be lucky if my baby died, because right now he was facing a lifetime of mental issues. then she got mad when i cried. "r u trying to bring labor on?" everyday is a milestone, i know that. but gosh 25 weeks is so tiny. my doctors want me to make it to 28 weeks. seems forever away.