Thanks everyone for your words of encouragement. They help more than
you think... because this is a time when I am feeling very lonely an
angry at the world. My finding out gender is so recent that I'm in stage
I think where I want to be angry, if that makes any sense. It's
like I need to go thru that phase of sadness, anger, bitterness, before I
can accept the situation. I have been thru some tough things in my life
and I just though that this one time, finally, I may have gotten what I
wished and prayed for. So I feel like life has let me down yet again,
is making me take the difficult road instead of the easy, happy one that
some people seem to be oon effortlessly. I can imagine how people
dealing with infertility must feel - life is sooooooo unfair sometimes.
really hope that youre right and that when I meet this baby, I will
love it instantly and a lot fo the GD will lift. In fact, there is no
doubt in my mind I will adore this child. What scares me is the pain I
may have to deal with for a long while when seeing baby/toddler girls,
or hearing of friends or relatives having girls. I just know that's
gonna hurt so much, and it's not like I can live in a bubble and
eliminate all little girls from my sight.
My DH has been
great, but I'm trying to make him understand that this sadness will not
lift overnight for me, that it will be very gradual, will take time. He
is open to a third child, yes, but personally, I'm just not sure I'm
up to it. I'm already 36 and never imagined I could handle more than
two kids... As for HT, from what I gathered reading a few threads here
on In-Gender, the only less invasive and expensive option is Microsort
in Mexico. Honestly, if their success rate was higher, I would consider
it, but from what I read today, there's only about a 15% chance of
getting pg with them. I saw only one mom on here get her DD that way and
a lot just got BFNs... So I dunno. I'm not closing the door though so
if anyone has more insight on this, I'd still be interested.
GreenZelda: if it's not too indiscrete, did HT work on the first try for you? How taxing was it on your body and mood? How much did it cost? Where in the US did you go?