2 ww, causal observation

Thinking of you! GOOD LUCK tomorrow!!

We need an update!!  I can't wait any longer.  Praying you received good news.

I'm sorry, hun

Where is the update?  I must have missed it.

HI All and LexiAnn :)

I didn't post yet on this thread, I did yesterday on another.

Yesterday did not go well at all. I'm still trying to wrap my head around it all. My u/s showed two sacs still but neither had grown, at all. The first sac is now misshapen and whatever may have been growing in it has stopped. The second sac is still empty. Neither grew beyond 5w6d. I am almost 9 weeks. My body hasn't figured it out yet once again that they didn't make it. Yes, I'm devastated, but I knew the chance I would take. I am meeting with my ob on Monday to determine best course from here. As much as I want nature to run it's course, a d&c is not good for anyone's system, right?, I really hope they would be able to test what's there to see if we're missing something and will test for it next time around.

My nurse loves to tell my I have old eggs. I'm really sick of hearing that, I know plenty of 40-somethings who are able to get pregnant ~ and keep it! I've been spending my morning researching what I can take as a supplement to increase egg quality. Apparently, it is possible. I have to focus on selling my house at the moment , so another cycle won't be possible for another few months anyway, so maybe the distraction will help.

I'm open to advice across the board. I hate that I'm 40 and have wasted so much time trying to get this far. Time is definitely working against me.

Thank you to everyone who has supported me to this point, I will still post here and there and keep in touch, but I really want to focus on getting this done right for the next time. I'm also contacting other clinics in my area who do PGD, apparently there are many including Mass General (top hospital!!!) and they're my first call.
I honestly think my next cycle I will test for gender only, I'll take more chances that way I know, but given the odds that I am throwing away good embies based on 1 cell, I'd rather take all boy embies and see what happens.

Take care!! if you want to email me if you can't find me, its bcorso hotmail. B

I'm sorry tinks-big hugs..fwiw I only had my embryos tested for gender and I think I would definitely do that..and your eggs aren't that old!don't even listen to that!there are a lot of 40 year old women having babies and I honestly think the technology is flawed--I'm proof it's flawed!I pgd'd for girls and lo and behold got a boy and a girl..so I think it's entirely possible they say there may be something wrong w/an embryo when there isn't,which is why I'm all for just testing for gender..

aww im so sorry hun i was looking for an update for you. take time you need to mourn your babies. hopefully your next cycle will be a success. i know you don't want a d&c. i don't know what options there are where you live but a friend of mine had a missed miscarriage. her sac was also misshaped but she wouldn't miscarry at all. they gave her these little pills that started the bleeding and after that she went on her own. it took alot longer then the d&c to get everything out. but if you don't plan on cycling again for a few months it might be an option for you. again hun im so sorry, prayers are with you and your family.

Oh Tinks, I am so very sorry, I've been stalking this site and the other for your update, I was thinking maybe your u/s was next week as I wasn't finding it anywhere. I thought for sure those little guys were in there hiding and just giving you grief, they are male afterall :) I am not having good news either, out of 7 embryos, only 2 fertilized and we don't know if they are male or female until Tuesday. So hang in there and I would def go to another RE/Clinic, it sounds like the one you were going to was a complete joke. Hugs and prayers from me to you and your family.

Oh tinksmagic I am so so sorry!  I didn't want to say anything earlier and scare you, but I was alittle concerned when you mentioned that the sacs were measuring behind and that the techs weren't concerned about what was in them.  My second cycle I had 3 sacs all measuring about the same size, but only 1 contained a baby.  I understand how hard this all is right now.  Take some time to grieve.  Then maybe find a new RE.  What state do you live in?  I think that testing only for gender might be the way to go too.  My thoughts and prayers are with you.  Take care of yourself. 

Thank you, everyone!

I meet with my ob in the morning to discuss options. I am calling Mass General as well and see if there's something they can do at this point to intervene and maybe have them test the sacs to see what went wrong (if they do that).

I had really hoped this would be the cycle! I'm now doing a ton of research on acupuncture, yoga, eating for fertility, and all of those "miracle" supplements to see if there's any truth to them and if it's something that might work.

I probably won't be able to cycle again until July at this point, from what I read, what you do to your system now, takes 90 days to affect your eggs (if there's any truth to increasing egg quality and quantity). I do have to say that hubby took Maca Root powder for 6 weeks leading up to our cycle and it produced 5 out of 6 boys. I was told my my dr that men are affected every 6 weeks. Needless to say, at this point, I'm also researching what he can take just in case he's the one with abnormal chromosomes. (we really can't tell, right?)

I'll post what I find and will be asking tons of questions!!! Again, thank you to everyone for your kindness and support. 40 is a tough age to be at! Funny cuz like they say, you spend your youth trying not to get pregnant, then when you want to... you can't. Funnier still cuz I had no problem at 17 getting knocked up and now that time isn't on my side, I can't. :(

This morning's update. After barely making it to my appointment (had to get an hour sleep, then deal with my OCD 6yo to get to school) I all but either passed out or puked when I got to the dr's. I hadn't eaten yet (no appetite) and my sugar level was crashing. The ladies there were great! When they asked what was wrong I told them I was the most pregnant, non-pregnant person I knew! Got some confused looks on that one. When I was finally brought in the nurse briefly went over what I was there for, if a surgery (d&c) was scheduled, and how I was feeling. I told her I am refusing a d&c, I'll let Mother Nature take it from here. She mumbled something about going to see the doctor. 10 mins later (and hearing them outside discuss not doing a check on me (internal)), my dr. came in and we discussed that for someone who was told I was going to miscarry over the weekend, I still felt very pregnant. We went over my er u/s results and compared them to the ones done in his office last week. There had only been 3mm growth in each sac over those 8 days. He mentioned a blighted ovum, which I was expecting to hear.

We decided to wait this out. Since I was feeling preggers still, no spotting or real cramping, we would wait to see what happens. He wasn't too hopeful for a miracle, but since he feels we're still in the running, we're going with a "threatened miscarriage" at this point. I had read that perhaps a tilted uterus could be hiding a baby, but he didn't feel that was the case (even though mine is reversed), he felt that they would have seen something by now. I did have my HCG levels checked again (still waiting for results). Back on the progesterone (I only missed 1 day) and praying for a miracle.

I am determined to fight for this pregnancy til the end, when Mother Nature decides! It ain't over til it's over!!!!

I forgot to add: Between the 8 days between my last u/s, each sac actually had grown about 3mm each, not the results they were looking for, but still growing. Sac #1 was 14mm and still showed remains of yolk sac (it was 11mm at er) and sac #2 was 11mm (was +/- 9mm at er). Dr says this *might be* due to methods used to measure, but unsure. I'm still waiting to find out my HCG numbers and we're scheduling another u/s for this coming Friday. At least he's working with me to monitor all possible options!

Wow Hun , you are really in a roller coaster huh!?!? Well I keep my fingers crossed for you! Hugs

Yeah, weird, huh? I just got off the phone with the ob's office. My next u/s is Friday for sure and my hcg rose from 20,662 10 days ago to 35748 today. Still a small glimmer of hope!

Really? I'm not good with those numbers but it raisd so there must be something happening inside there isn't it?!?!?

WOW!!! I dont know whether to say Congrats or I'm sorry!!! Holding my breath and Praying for you!! We need some good news on here!!