Is this GD?

Apologies in advance if I'm posting in the wrong place but I just want to know if how I'm feeling is normal or not, although it doesn't feel normal iykwim?

I had two beautiful boys and a third due in May. I didn't sway for a specific gender, we just wanted another healthy baby so when we found out we were having another healthy boy we were so happy. I still feel the same and can't wait to meet him. I know he's going to beautiful just like his big brothers, but at the same time I feel sad that I'm never going to have a girl. We both agreed three was enough for us. I put on a front to everyone that I'm totally not bothered but feel the total opposite inside. Its kinda like a mourning feeling, but I haven't lost anything?

I don't have any negative feeling towards this baby, like wishing he was or girl or wishing I never got pregnant. Just really confused!

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Thanks for your reply, thats made me feel a lot better

I was the same way with my 3rd girl. I really wanted a 3rd but my DH didn't. But he also didn't wear protection so we ended up with a happy surprise. I was over the moon and didn't care if ti was a boy or girl. Until I was told girl at 20 weeks. I put on a brave face for everyone, even my husband. But in private i would sob uncontrollably. I kept saying to my baby "I'm not sad for you, I'm just sad for the son I'll never have"

What you're feeling is so normal. Well, it's so normal here anyways! My DD3 is now 11 months old. I found that it has gotten easier and easier as her personality grew. When I'm with her I feel no desire or disappointemnt. It's times when I"m on the computer or out without her that I'll notice little boys.

Hugs! I found that buying DD3 a couple new things and going through my girls old clothes really helped me. I remember holding up a newborn sleeper and being able to imagine the little body that would fill that sleeper!

Lisa

stelisa:

Hugs! I found that buying DD3 a couple new things and going through my girls old clothes really helped me. I remember holding up a newborn sleeper and being able to imagine the little body that would fill that sleeper!

Glad to know that its a normal feeling. I've not told anyone in RL, so its nice to write it down here and get it off my chest.

I find I feel it more when I found out someone is having a girl, like on facebook and girl I know has two boys and just found out she's having a girl. Everyone was commented on how she has the perfect family. I felt really sad about it, that its never going to be me. 

Its odd because I have friends with girl babies but I don't brood over them when I see them, I feel indifferent. Show me a boy baby and I turn to mush. It would be great to just turn it off!

I think I'll use the weekend to sort out the boy's baby clothes