19 Week Scan

Finally we had the scan done! It went really well, and everything looked good with the babe at first glance. The radiologist's report is of course the "final" word. There's just one baby, which is good. I've gotten a lot of comments about "you're so big" - but I think it's just a normal 5th baby belly!

The baby was moving all around, which was so reassuring because I don't feel a lot of movement. My placenta is anterior and right in the middle of my uterus, which explains things. I loved having her tell me how the baby is positioned (head up by my belly button and feet down by my pubic bone) because I have been feeling part of the baby up near my belly button and love knowing what part it is!

I loved watching the scan and the children really enjoyed it too (well, except our 2yo... he was trying to figure out what the tech was doing to Mama's belly, lol!) DH and I asked her to please put the gender into an envelope for us, as DH decided to let me choose when/if we tell before the birth. I'm so thankful for that.

We dropped DH off at work and when we got home I went to our room for a few minutes and opened the envelope privately. The tech had included two perfect little gender shots confirming our blood test results. A beautiful baby girl. I can say that I still feel some sadness and conflict but I do think seeing her really helped. We have a beautiful profile shot and it's so sweet. And I keep telling myself that the name we picked is so nice and it would be a shame not to use it. I'm going to pick pattern/fabric to make her some dresses in the style I like before her birth, and I am looking forward to that. I am really happy to have the sweet pictures to look at her, how perfectly she is formed already. I am hopeful that true excitement and overwhelming love will come, and I can raise her with a wonderful mother/daughter relationship. I am excited for DH as this is what he was hoping for :)

Here's her sweet profile:

 Congrats! Im glad she is healthy

She's beautiful hon! I'm so glad you got to see her and bond what name have you chosen for her? I think having a name is so important for bonding! Hugs sweetie

Thank you Lynette. I can't tell you how much your encouragement has helped. We have her name picked but always keep it private until the birth. Her initials will be HRB - I really love the name we have picked. I went to the children's shop last night alone and bought her a little purple dress and a tiny kimono shirt for when she's a newborn. Today I am starting to feel eager to meet her so I think that things will come along in time. I am so thankful I'm starting to feel more open towards her. Seeing her precious little profile and tiny toes, etc. helped so much.

She looks like a sweetie!! I wanted a boy for my first, was a bit shocked to find out otherwise, I wasn't so sure about this mother-daughter thing  myself even though my own mother is my best friend. As time went on, I realized how special she is. Of course she's my first child so I could not help that feelling. I was pretty determined to sway for a boy next time around but now im content, so content that i'd be willing to just have one child.

 Congrats to you & your family!

 So glad you got to see your little girl and she is healthy!  So glad that the thought of having a girl is growing on you!

 what a beautiful profile! Congrats on a healthy baby girl!

Awwww, I love that picture, you will love her when you see her and hold her for sure.