Intro and just found out...

 Hi everyone.  I have read on this board from time to time but just joined today.  

 I have three boys- 6, 4 and 3.

Baby #4 is due in May.  Yesterday we had a sonogram at 17 weeks 5 days and found out that this baby is another BOY.

I am sad.  I did not realize how much I would of liked a girl.  DH is very sad but trying to hide it.  "It is what it is"  

We started TTC in Jan 2010 and did gender swaying techniques in Jan, Feb and March with no luck.  Then I stopped to get passed a Christmas due date... then it was summer.... In August, 5 days before AF was due, I had a + dollar store test.  Our conception time was 5 days before I was supposed to ovulate so I thought there was a chance that we finally had a girl sperm! I am have been very emotional also, unlike my other boys pregnancies.

 

But alas, we saw the penis twice yesterday.  I am happy but very sad too.  Three boys are exhausting so four children will probably be my limit.  I don't have the energy for this anymore... I feel like we would make 20 boys before ever having a girl.

Of course I told everyone on FB that we were having the scan yesterday.  I told everyone that they had to wait until Christmas day to find out.  EVERYone wants it to be a girl and keeps making girls comments... which is making it worse.  

 Thanks for letting me vent.  

Merry Christmas!! 

Congratulations on your little boy! I have four boys and it is awesome. I decided after my four blessings that I could just manage 5 children if the 5th was my daughter so I went HT and eventually I achieved success. Boys are great but I understand the desire to have a daughter. I hope you enjoy your boys and one day you get your daughter.

Congrats on your boy, I'm sorry you didn't hear pink.  We are expecting boy #3 in May after swaying for a girl. I got a private elective scan and didn't tell anyone until 2 weeks later when we got our 20 wk scan.  I found that this was a great help because I had my time to sulk alone and then tell everyone else when I was ready.  I got all of the stupid comments on FB but I just came back with the truth that "we are just happy and feel blessed to have our 3rd healthy baby".  That pretty much ended the comments.  I hope you feel better soon and can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy

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 I did the same thing Halah!  told everyone that I wanted a boy. 

 

So the high tech route- how much does that cost?  I am assuming its invitro?  

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Congrats on your healthy little guy.  I know just where you're coming from as I had my 4th little boy 16 months ago, and thought that I would be ok with #4 being a boy (but I really think I had just convinced myself that it would be a girl!), but then I kind of fell apart after my ultrasound.  I had a very hard time listening to everyone's comments, and it was pretty unbearable for a while.  But now being on the other side of it, life goes on.  I still have moments where I am sad for what I am missing out on without having a daughter, but am trying to focus on the blessings I do have in my life, and not let envy and coveting take away from my happiness.  I also still keep that dream alive that maybe I'll have 1 more and it could be a girl, but I also am at a point right now where I'm so busy and overwhelmed with everything I have on my plate that it's not going to happen anytime soon.  So just remember that you're not alone in this (that's something that helped me), and that it will stop being such an all consuming feeling in the future.  And practice up on your snarky comments to respond to people's stupidity that pops out of their mouth (like a bunch of family members who responded to the news with "ohhh, I really wanted this to be a girl"!  REALLY, cuz I didn't want that at all!!!)

Hi Lenaloo, its hard to deal with i know. I think the worst bit is not feeling sad about not having a girl but feeling guilty for feeling sad in the first place. I am sad not because i am having another boy but because im never going to have a girl lol sorry im probably not making sense am i. either way i know what you mean. I had all our family and friends preying ( i am not even religious by the way) for me to have a girl this time and i tell you the worst part for me discovering i am having boy number 6 was telling all of them the news. I kind of felt like a failure! because for the 1st 20 weeks it wasnt oh she is having another baby it was OHhhhhhhh i wonder if she'll have a girl...it was so hard to text and call everyone to say 'Its a Boy'

I found with all my boy discoveries i went through stages of GD. Like the 1st bit is sad/dissapointed and putting on a brave face to deal with it then theres the stage where i google 'Ultrasound wrong' or 'scan said boy but it was a girl' guess ya call that 1 denial! then theres the Why me? stage followed by guilt then the blah/sad bit that im upto right now. 

Hang in there im sure your new little man will be much loved and a gorgeous addition to your family.