So, now that I'm showing and I'm clearly pregnant, I get comments from EVERYONE! I can't leave the house without running into some random stranger who wants to know everything about my pregnancy. When am I due? What am I having? And I felt like I was getting to the point where I was almost ok with not having a girl, until these questions started. When they ask, I even try to make sure that I answer like I'm excited. Rather than sulking and saying "oh,I'm having a boy," with clear disappointment. I'd put on a smile and saying "I'm having a little boy!!" and try to convey to the complete stranger that this is a good thing and I'm excited about it.
But it doesn't seem to matter how I say it, I always get the same responses. I either get "Oh, that's nice," completely flat, or "Well, boys can be fun too, I suppose," or "Girl clothes are so much more fun to pick out, but at least you won't have to deal with a teenaged girl." I get so sick of all of this!! Why won't a single person tell me how great having a boy is without first knocking boys down and THEN trying to bring them up. This all would be so much easier if at least one person could be genuinely excited about it being a boy. When I'm at baby stores and another woman is having a girl, I feel like she gets more attention. Everyone is so happy for her. Everyone is excited about her baby and wants to help her pick out all the little outfits and talk about names, etc. But I can be in the same room and it's like I'm nothing, I don't matter. And I know part of it is my emotions and paranoia exaggerating the situation, but a lot of it is actually happening. Like, I actually kind of feel like an incubator right now, not a mother, because even when I try to enjoy it, others remind me that my child is somehow inferior because he's a boy.
I want so badly to just move on with my GD and be happy about this pregnancy, but it's proving nearly impossible. I am already thinking about it all the time without all these complete strangers making me feel worse. So, am I just not supposed to leave the house? I feel completely lost and hurt right now, I just want it to end. I still have 15 weeks and I just need him to be here already so I can show people how wonderful and adorable he is. I need him in my arms so I can love him and know that baby boys are just as amazing as baby girls.
also, as if having a teenager of any gender is easy! Boys can be serious trouble, too. I learned this watching my older brothers, my mother was stressed ALL the time. She said I was her easiest.