Anna thank you. I am actually getting better now. The only people knew about how sad I was are Dh my sister and my mom. I didn;t tell anyone that we expecting girl yet, everybody around so curious and telling me this is your boy which also add to sadness. But I am getting better , my mom and my sister gave me a huge support. I already have a name for the baby too :-) , my DD2 picked the names for a girl and a boy a long time ago. And funny thing I liked a baby girl name she picked and that is all I had in my head no other names or boy names.
I am now secretley looking into HT althought I feel guilty when I do that. When I got married I wanted 4 kids, mixed 2 of each:-) . Then after having 2 I thought I am done, but no. So who knows I might go with the HT for #4.
Is it much more difficult with 3 kids now? I am also working and don't want to give up my career. How does that suits 3 or 4 kids?
I wish you guys you and bows&robbins good luck in your HT jorney. I remember I was researching with you the HT and we are from the same area NY. Financially we are able to afford HT, but I wasn't ready then emotionally and mostly was scared of drugs and medical procedure. Are you going to cycle with Dr Braverman?