Thanks Ladies! I have been keeping my feelings to myself. I had expressed my feelings to my Mom, Sister, and Hubby when I found out at 16 weeks, and they could not believe I felt that way. They just think that I should be happy to have a healthy baby. My Mom makes me feel like something bad is going to happen because I shouldn't have these feelings.
I don't want to feel this way and I am so thankful for a healthy baby, but like I said I just wonder how it would have been if I never miscarried or if I was told this baby was a girl! I thought I was over it, especially when my good friend delivered her baby girl recently who has downs. I said to myself that I should really count my blessings, but then the feelings started up again. I just think it's my miscarriage due date approacing! Thanks again for all your kind words!