Feeling a little sad!

Hi Girls,

I'm feeling a little down this week as December 6th approaches!  It was the due date of my miscarried baby!  I also think I'm suffering from GD this week too since having my 20 week scan last Friday.  As most of you know I was told boy at 16 weeks and held out some hope for my 20 week scan that maybe it was truly a girl.  It wasn't!  He is healthy and I am thankful, but I will always wonder what my baby's gender was from my miscarriage!  I feel selfish for feeling this way, and I know that things could be so much worse.  I should be thankful for this little bundle growing inside of me, but can't help this feeling of sadness.  Sorry to vent, and maybe I shouldn't be posting here, but I feel that on the GD board, people frown on pigeon pair moms who want another of the same gender.  Can't help my feelings I guess!  I know I will love this little guy more than life once he is here, but just wonder what could have been!  Thanks for letting me vent!

I am sorry for your loss and I know that reaching the due date must be very difficult.  As for the GD, you can't help how you feel, even if you have a pigeon pair!  The heart wants what it wants.  I do know you will love your little man so much once he arrives, but GD is still real and I hope you feel better soon.

BossMare:

I am sorry for your loss and I know that reaching the due date must be very difficult.  As for the GD, you can't help how you feel, even if you have a pigeon pair!  The heart wants what it wants.  I do know you will love your little man so much once he arrives, but GD is still real and I hope you feel better soon.

 

 

I'm sorry you are feeling down and I know how sad and lonely the due date of your miscarried baby can feel. Allow yourself a bit of time to grieve and you will get through it. I totally understand your desire for another girl, despite already having one. It is hard to explain to others that are desperately hoping for either gender that they don't already have, but as the pp said..the heart wants what it wants and there is no less importance to your GD feelings than to anyone elses.

I hope you feel a bit happier soon and that you can start to get excited about your gorgeous new little and I hope another DD is in your future

BIG (((HUGS)))

xx

Thanks Ladies!  I have been keeping my feelings to myself.  I had expressed my feelings to my Mom, Sister, and Hubby when I found out at 16 weeks, and they could not believe I felt that way. They just think that I should be happy to have a healthy baby. My Mom makes me feel like something bad is going to happen because I shouldn't have these feelings.

I don't want to feel this way and I am so thankful for a healthy baby, but like I said I just wonder how it would have been if I never miscarried or if I was told this baby was a girl!  I thought I was over it, especially when my good friend delivered her baby girl recently who has downs.  I said to myself that I should really count my blessings, but then the feelings started up again.  I just think it's my miscarriage due date approacing!  Thanks again for all your kind words!