but I still wish I could make the decision just based on positive feelings rather than on all the reasons I "shouldn't" have another baby.
Oh Mom2RJA, you know I think you should have one more--your heart yearns for one, and I agree with you totally when you say you should have one for the positive reasons! And the shouldn't shouldn't rule your life.
As for us---we are done at 5. We had planned for 4, and were blessed with a bonus. I was not ready for a permanent solution if it was just our 4th baby, but knowing this is 5, I am ready to take that step.
BUT---let me just say that I just gave away all my boy clothes today, and felt scared--what if I decided to have another, what if it was another sweet boy? Just thinking that this is the end, it hurts my heart thinking about it.
Anyway, I think I know exactly how you feel. Knowing when to be done--tough call. Really tough call.