I just had my third boy 2 months ago and I felt 100% different once I had him in my arms, I just couldn't love this little boy more, he is amazing. However, before I had him I was just like you, not excited at all. It was my last child and I really wanted this one to be a girl. I love raising boys but I had two already, it felt like, yeah whatever been there done that. I was disappointed and I hated all the "hope you get your girl, everyones hoping for at girl" etc comments. When I was pg my emotions were all over the place and I couldn't imagine loving another little boy. Once I had him I felt totally different, sure he is another boy but he is growing and changing everyday and I just love to see his little personality develop. My dh sent out a funny email to annouce our new boy with a cute picture and not one person responded negatively. Try not to feel so guilty your feelings are quite normal, hey having a baby is hard and emotional. Your not alone!! hugs