It's a !!! I can't even tell you how relieved I am and want to thank you all for your amazing support. I wish I could say the same about DP!!! When I told him that L. had text me and her update, he just rolled his eyes, like to say "get over it!". I told him that we need to have a good chat, I am sick of having to try to explain myself and the way he makes me feel guilty. I just want to know straight why he behaves like this. Isn't enough that he has broke my heart already by pulling out of PGD?!
Back in August I posted this on here:
My ex husband and I broke up in May 2008 while we were together we agreed that he would be a sperm donor for a lesbian friend and her now wife, this was in January 2007. We have been friends with L. for over 10 years when her and her partner approached us and asked us if we would consider this. My ex and I both felt that we were very lucky to be able to simply have a child but lots of people out there are not so fortunate therefore helping them was a nice thing to do. They tried for long time naturally using my ex sperm but nothing happened so they had to do IVF. 10 days ago I found out that G. is now pg! That's a wonderful news and I am very happy for them but my first thought was: What if it's a girl? When I told DP he said that the genes are different and that I should really let it go but I can't! I am going to be so upset and pissed off if they have a girl with my ex sperm, I will kill him!!! I wouldn't want another child with my ex but in my sick mind this is how I see it: you gave me 3 boys and them 1 girl??? I also like to add that I am very please for my friends and my ex husband and I will be this baby godparents.
But today is the day that they will find out if their baby is a boy or a girl. I was sure it was last Saturday so I have already had one bad weekend. If this baby turns out to be a girl, I know I will blame myself that means that my ex can produce girls so the problem is me. My DP thinks that it's a very sad way of looking at it but this is how I will feel.
Please God, let it be a boy.