My precious baby Mikey is currently on respiratory support at Seattle Children's Hospital.
He has coded once. We thought he was going to die.
Here are my thoughts. I am a slow/no poker when it comes to vaccines. I didn't plan to vaccinate for H1N1, but my husband insisted. Unfortunately it found us before we could find the vaccine. Most of my family were only mildly ill, though the boys are on antibiotics for suspected pneumonia.
H1N1
is some nasty, nasty stuff. The PICU is filled with terribly sick
children. I really wish that the news would report on H1N1 cases like
Mikey's. People need to know that there are other dangers to the flu
besides pneumonia. For some reason, I thought that if he could ride out
the flu season without pneumonia that he would be just fine.
I
keep having flashbacks to the day he was born, medical professionals in
their gowns, everyone smiling. Then my mind turns to yesterday, a room full
of medical professionals in gowns and N95 respirators. No one smiling.
Jim and I clutching each other for Mikey's dear life. We
both thought that we would possibly lose him right there.
Last night he was started on a strong injectable anti-viral. Scares me to give him
the anti-virals again, but the risk/benefit ratio is painfully clear.
I
have great hope that he will recover from this. I am sure my hair will
be gray, but I'd consider that a bargain for my baby boy.
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Remembering my tiniest baby. My daughter from petri dish #3, conceived 10.27.07, transferred 10.31.07, loved for always.
Wife to Jim, Mommy to David 12, Harry 7, George 5, Thomas 2, Michael our newborn, and Frank, forever my baby.
My precious Frank Charles, born and died 8.4.08 at 22 weeks, 2 days due
to placental abruption and PROM, and responsible for the most treasured
thirty minutes of my life.