so was the birth hard on you because of a large size baby? How big? was it bigger than your others? What size do the estimate this one now to be? Those are things I would want to know before deciding. I have had monsterously huge babies. My first tore me up pretty bad but I think thats more common with a first. My second I was ripped to shreds. It took forever to restitch me. I was so bruised, so torn, and had huge hemrhoids after that birth. when nurses would come in to check my stitches without fail every one of them would gasp when they saw it! However, my next I barely needed one stitch and the same with my last one who was 11 lbs. So sometimes after that initial tearing it gets easier.
If it has nothing to do with baby size then I would be more inclined to get the section because it seems like it may be just the way it works for you.
as far as recovery, you maybe surprized that the pain and healing from the section isn't too bad as compared to the pain from being so tore. I couldn't even lift my leg up enough to get into the shower without hollering out loud for weeks after I was tore so bad. Sitting was near impossible for like a month and downright uncomfortable for even more time but possible. I was still sore months later but functional. Not saying the c sections are not painful I am sure they are but ripping so bad is no picnic either.