TATIANA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for thinking of me Mel. I'm slowly starting to feel better. my husband and i were in Boston this past weekend for a wedding and i think it did me some good. the mornings are still the hardest for me and i do still think about it a lot during the day. but at least i am finally able to sleep and eat again so that's a definite improvement! xoxo

Oh, Tatiana, that's so good to hear.  I hope each day gets better and I know you will be blown away when you meet your new little man.  Have you thought about any names yet.  People always say that helps.  Continuing to think of you.

Hugs to you, i can totally understand how you feel, and dread feeling the same at my big u/s too.  Sometimes i think it's not worth knowing in advance, kwim? other times i think it's better knowing than living in false hope. I'm thinkgin of you, big hugs x

Thanks Jodie and Alyssa! Things are much much better. I'm finally starting to smile, laugh and feel like myself again. I've started going out for dinner with friends again too and its been very good for me. Yesterday, my husband and I celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary and I had a glass of wine (at the suggestion of my OBGYN, believe it or not), and i really enjoyed it! I did not drink at all during my last pregnancy and hadn't had a drink yet in this one either so it was nice. I still have moments when I feel down and disappointed but they are less frequent and not as painful or pronounced. My really bad moments are like the one I had two hours ago in the park when I saw a couple of adorable little girls playing alongside my son. And, this morning, my husband and I took our son to a concert at his music school and there was a mom there holding her little 12 month daughter and I felt a pang of jealousy. I realize now though that I need to face reality; I am not having my little girl so I better get into the boy thing in a big way. Today, I went through my son's old clothes and sorted it out, deciding what t keep for the next one. Of course, I had hoped to give way and donate all his old clothes if we were having a girl, since we were going to stop at two if I was pregnant with a girl... So that was boring and hard but, oh well, I guess it means less shopping which is probably a good thing during this awful recession. No Alyssa, I haven't really started to think about names yet. The baby recently started kicking and I always refer to it as "the baby" or "it moved etc.." I cannot bring myself to say "he" yet. Jodie, I hope you get your girl. I think that ultimately, it's better to know in advance that way there is more time for it to sink in and for acceptance. I know that in my case, I am much better now than I was 2 weeks ago. Finding out at birth could have sent me right into postpartum depression. xo