I got pregnant really easily with both of my boys. R was conceived our first month trying, and J was a surprise a month before we planned to start trying again. I wouldn't say that I ever took them for granted, but I'm not sure I fully appreciated what miracles they are.
Our journey to TTC a girl with MS/IUI has had the unexpected effect of really making me realize the incredible miracle of each of my boys. When I had my BFN last fall, I just felt so close to both of them. I realized how tiny the chances were of either of them existing at all or being who they are. I don't think I could love them any more than I did even before that, but it really did make me appreciate their existence in a way that I hadn't thought about much before.
I had the same experience this time, especially during my 2WW, and those feelings are continuing now that I am pregnant. I'm holding them closer and just marveling at the way they look and the ideas they have. How did I get so lucky to be their mom? It is just so amazing to me that these incredible people came from a chance meeting of my egg and one of millions of my husband's sperm.
I'm really excited to be pregnant again, and of course I hope this one is a girl, but wow, I am so lucky already!