About 3 weeks ago I got a bfp, but kept it to myself.  I chose to do this because the last 3 times, the bfp ended in miscarriage, so I thought that if I kept this one a secret, it might just result in a baby.  Sadly not.  I went to see my OB on Monday and knew that I wouldn't see a heartbeat on his ultrasound machine and I didn't.  I had an internal ultrasound done at the hospital and again nothing.  I am booked for a d&c on Thursday.  My DH and I decided that this was our absolute last try.  I'm still adjusting to the idea of only ever having 2 children and that my ability to choose how many kids we are having has been finalised.  I know in a few weeks, I will feel a sense of relief.  We have been holding onto baby clothes, toys, furniture, prams, car seats etc etc for years and I will be pleased when I can finally get rid of it all.

I wish everyone in their ttc journeys the best of luck.  Please appreciate the children that you have, regardless of their gender and count yourself really lucky if you can produce lots of healthy happy children.

I'm so sorry that you are dealing with this.  My heart breaks for you.  You are a wonderful person and you deserve the best!

Oh my heart is breaking for you too.  You have been through so much already.  Big hugs for you!

I'm so sorry.

 I want only the best for all of the ladies here. There are always a few women that you especially root for. You were so kind to me after my loss. I have always followed your posts hoping that you would finally get what you deserved. I am so sad to read this. Maybe once you and DH decide to stop trying you may be in for a surprise.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Mrs.Maya:

There are always a few women that you especially root for. You were so kind to me after my loss. I have always followed your posts hoping that you would finally get what you deserved.

 oh4agirl, I am more sorry than I can say about your loss, I wish I could give you a real hug.

I'm sorry for your lost. You are in my prayers.