Well, it's been a long time since I have been on this site. I had to make myself stay away before I had the baby. I really needed to take some time and get myself excited about the baby. Although this site has been extremely helpful in coping with my g/d, I had to make myself get over it as best as I could.
Well, we had our beautiful baby on June 14th (4 weeks early) and he is doing well. He had some breathing problems at first but only ended up being in the hospital for 6 days. As I sat by his little bed in the NICU, I was reminded at how selfish I can be and what that I should always be thankful that God has trusted ME to raise these beautiful boys. Yes, I still want a little girl, and I always will. I don't think it's wrong to want certain things but it's when I throw a fit because I don't get what I want that is the problem 
. I am thankful that I was able to bond with Alexander right away and I am completely in love with him. I still feel a little sad when I see a sweet baby girl, or when I am shopping and the girl's dept. is 3 times bigger than the boys (I hate that!!). But, I am honored that God has given me these boys to raise into great men. My daily prayer is that if my desires are different than God's, that He changes my desires to match his!
My husband and I are praying about baby #4!! It's def. not out of the question... but of course, it's not in our hands! Who knows, I may be back in a year or so because boy #4 is on his way 