Well here I am, an update on the night, and my thoughts...

I am so sorry. I have been following your posts and hoping this was your baby boy. I understand how you feel.You and your husband sound like wonderful parents and your girls are sooo lucky to have you guys as parents! Congats on your baby girl. Take Care.

I've actually been feeling a lot better than I expected today.  So I decided packing up the boy clothes would help me heal and would give me the extra tubs I need to put the girl clothes in.  It didn't go well though, and not because of me or how I felt.  All the girls came in and wanted to help and play with the clothes and shoes.  So I kept getting distracted.  First I was trying to sort everything out to give some to this person and some to that person.  But the girls kept mixing everything up and grabbing stuff.  So then I decided I'd just give some to my sister and let my SILs use the rest if they have boys.  But it's hard figuring out what my sister would use and which is the right season.  And I started feeling guilty for not sharing with other people too.  Then out of nowhere DD2 starts bawling "But I want a brother!" "Why can't we have a brother and a sister...our Aunt got to have 2 boys at once?" and goes on and on and on screaming and crying.  Thankfully DD1 was helpful in trying to explain it to her and wasn't upset herself and DD3 is too young to know.  I feel so bad though, like I not only let down myself and DH but also my girls.  I didn't even think DD2 wanted a brother, since she kept saying she wanted enough sisters to be the 12 Dancing Princesses and things like that.  And it's always been DD1 who said she wanted a brother.  But both of them have told like everyone at church we are having a boy, that'll be fun to deal with.  So anyways, I decided to take a break and have lunch.  But now I've gotta go back in there.  My problem is I'm torn between giving stuff away or keeping it...it's so dumb!  I wish my SIL who is due 3 months after me already knew what she was having. 

Oh and I wanted to thank you all for your kind words and support.  What would I do with out you all?  Pretty soon I'll need your help finding a girl name, but for right now I don't want to think about that.  I still feel like I'm in a dream and still haven't had my ultrasound, since it's so shocking that it's a girl.  Everyone (even DH and I) had a strong feeling this was a boy.  But the ultrasound was too convincing to 2nd guess it, as well as the money shot I have between the legs.  The minute he started the ultrasound I saw the 3 lines.    

(((HUGS))) I have not read anything here except your original post, so I'm responding to that.......

I'm in the opposite place as you with 4 boys, but I think we're still in the same boat, and I hope you'll find what I have to say comforting??

It is strange being in that small percentage that has 4 of the same gender, is'nt it??? That was the thing that kept going through my mind when I found out about our 4th boy........I'm with your DH, in agreeing that it's " what God wants". Still shocking, though, is'nt it? Takes awhile to get used to.......

Just a moment ago after I read your post, I walked over to my 4th little blessing. He was swinging in the swing, and gave me big smiles...........I'm enjoying him lots- even though I have 3 other boys and would have loved a girl...........There's just something amazing about life......about babies.......about being trusted with another human being.........

I have/had a small stash of girl clothes, and it was very liberating to give a lot of it away to a dear friend of mine who gave birth to a much wanted girl several weeks before my son was born. ( She did'nt know what she was having) I dunno- it just felt good to give a lot of it away to a dear friend who loves me to pieces, and who just had a baby girl.  Last night I gave away another girl onsie to another couple who had a girl this summer, and did'nt know the gender........I buy this stuff cheap, and so it makes it easier to part with.......That, and I guess I just don't have much jealousy of these people just cuz I'm enjoying my 4th blessing........Give it some time, you may feel the same.......

Blessings- take some time to grieve...........Oh, and CONGRATS!!!!

I am so sorry that you did not hear boy. It really sucks that we can't have a mixed gender family.

My son asked why we have to wait so long to have a girl. I just finally told him we most likely never will and will that be OK? I said "we are lucky we have each other and come to think of it we have a good time together right? "He smiled and hugged me so I guess it is OK.

I just think for some of us we have some biology thing going on and we just keep having lots of the same gender. Sorry but I just cannot believe it is 50/50. Not when you see four , five six, seven of the same gender in a row.

I hope you are feeling better and everyone is right you are young . THere is still hope

Hugs to you Emily, i'm so sorry you didn't hear boy yesterday, allow yourself time to heal, you will find your way. I remember you saying in prevoius posts about waiting a while and going high tech for boy/s.  Would you be able to do that? Wait 2-3 years to save and do high tech? I guess sometimes it helps to have a reserve plan, even if it seems so far away.  FWIW, you have my ideal family, I always wanted 4 girls, no boys! Time will heal, you are in my thoughts xx

Oh sweetie - I understand what you're going through all to well.  I was hoping you heard boy!  You've got lots of time to make your decisions -  I think you are right to focus on the here and now and having that door open makes that soooo much easier.  I'm here if you ever need anything!! 

hey try one more time i had 4 girls before i got my boy ...he will be here dec 1 i had all my girls close togher 1 year apart then 2 years apart from eachouther..i waited a extra year this time amd got a boy so dont give up hope 

 I'm sorry to hear that you didn't hear boy and about the nasty tech you got to boot. I do know how hard it is to part with the clothes for the gender you were hoping for-I just gave alot of my girl things to my brother for his daughter. (I did keep a couple I couldn't part with yet-the coming home outfits for my two mistaken u/s). Hopefully one day we will both need to do some major shopping:)  Hugs to you.

I'm so sorry you didn't  hear the outcome you wanted.  I am friends w/ 2 girls who each have 3 sisters and no brothers, and they are the tighest-group of sisters I've ever known.  Everyone wants to be around them and are jealous of their own "language".

 (((hugs)))

You've brought tears to my eyes.  Am not sure what I can say.  God knows best for some reason we don't know.  You have beautiful children and someday your dream of holding your little boy will be a reality.  Keep holding onto your dream it will become a reality someday.  I will keep you and your family in prayer. 

Sandra.

I'm so sorry about what you're going through....I absolutely can relate, just on the opposite side of the equation.  I know the pain and disappointment you're feeling.  It really is hard.  I do have to say though that the initial shock does wear off, and it does get easier.  Plus, you're still really young!!  And when you're ready to try again your next baby will have 4 doting sisters to help out!  (In my experience my boys are very unhelpful most of the time when it comes to baby stuff).  Don't give up your dream, you really do have time!!  I wish I wasn't about to turn 35 in a month and a half b/c my clock is really ticking now, and I don't really have a lot of time left so it's pretty iffy right now.

But PLEASE keep your chin up and don't let go of your dream.......your little boy is out there and will come home to you someday!

I'm sorry you didn't hear boy this time.  I know that God works things together for good but its so hard sometimes wondering why is another girl best instead of a little boy.  I just keep telling myself that God really wants this particular baby in our family.  It still hurts so much though.

Your DH sounds wonderful and supportive so lean on him and all of us here. 

(((((HUGS)))))

Congratulations on your little girl. I know you wanted a boy and I am sorry you didn't get your wish this time. If it makes you feel any better, if I walked past you and your family I would be secretly thinking that you are one very blessed momma.

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