Thank you all so much for the well wishes! In the mean time, it's so busy here. Lukas is a very calm and sweet baby though! I am totally in love with him and have accepted the loss of 'my wish'. I'm planning to write my story for the section 'beyond GD' soon and hope to give some comfort to all the women that feel like I have felt once. GD sucks and it ruined a certain period of my pregnancy. I regret that, but am glad to say that it did NOT change the feelings towards my third son. I am a very proud boy-mom and love him to pieces. Thank you all for the support, this site has truly been a blessing for me. Love, tbaaw 