The point of my post was to illustrate that spending time with little girls doesn't make me not want my own daughter, it makes me want one even more. While I love to play with my nieces and the other little girls in my life, they belong to someone else, not me. At the end of the day they go home to their mothers because they are not my daughters. So no they won't call me Mommy and I won't wake up to their sweet little faces and get hugs and kisses from them every morning because, as I said before, they're not mine.
I want my own daughter I can share my life with, not borrow someone else's for a few hours. While some people may find dressing a girl a chore, one of the greatest joys in my life would be dressing my daughter and fixing her pretty hair in the mornings. I would love to take her and my Mom to lunch and take her shopping for cute girl clothes and dolls and get our hair and nails done together at the salon, all 3 of us. Those are some of my fondest memories with my Mom. I really hope that my HT dreams will come true some day and the little girl I'm dreaming of will be in my arms soon, and in enough time for me to enjoy her with my own mother too.