after reading all this and having that annoying nub pic where it looks very
boyish....i will soon be moving to gender dissapointemnt forums....my day feels
quite grey today.....i think i have hard 6monhts ahead of me....gonna take me
long time to accept this......

if it
DOES turn to be a boy.....i have no idea how i could have suffered so badly this
time.....i guess ma just getting too old....

.....i am also at
loss what to do with all my beautiful girly stuff....i hardly have anything left
form my boys.....

.....oh
god....depression is slowly seeping through...i am even too scared now to get my
NT scan....what is the point....i am sure baby is fine...only wanted to pay to
get to see baby again......won;t feel any better when things become more
convincing...

...pray for me
please girls pray i can deal with this....becaue the last thing i ever did want
is a boy i am afraid to say.......

...i used
to think i rather never conceive again.....i know i is harsch but i am not going
to pretend all is good if this is a boy.....i will be hugely dissapointed.....i
know time and the fact baby will be beautiful and healthy hopefully will deal
with the dissapointment....but i know this will be always tugging at me heart
esp when i see my little girl grow up all alone....without ever having a sister
to share anything with...just like me....