I still feel so cheated that I will never have a daughter, and sadly I know I always will feel that way! The biggest reason I wanted a daughter was because of the future relationship. I know people say you can have that same relationship with a son, but it's just not the same. Yes, as a child boys can do many of the things girls can, but as they get older they don't want to do these things anymore! I don't believe for a minute that any of my boys are going to call me on the phone when they are grown up just to chat, want to go shopping with me, or want to hang out with me and and get pedicures together! When my Mom is no longer around I will not have any women in my life to do these sorts of things with and that is a horrifying thought to me!!!! I admit that I am a girly girl, and I would love to buy pink and dresses and beautiful girly things. I am trying so hard to keep my chin up and really get excited for my new little boy. But even as I try to shop for DS4, I realize that nothing and I can buy for him will make me happy. It really upsets me that you can dress a little girl in boyish stuff and people think it's cute! But, with a boy it's not like I can just throw a pink outfit or a dress on him to at least have that little experience of having a girl! My little 2-year-old loves Abby Cadaby and Zoe on Sesame Street, but of course there are no boy (non-pink) clothing items with these characters. However, it is totally acceptable for a girl to wear a shirt with Elmo or Cookie Monster! It makes me so angry! I am so sick of buying the same sorts of things, and I don't understand why society is okay with a girl wearing boyish things, but a boy can not wear anything that is in the least bit girly! I am so sick of cars and trucks and ugly boy stuff! I am so sick of being surrounded by children who are wild and like to shoot at everything! I don't even allow toy guns, but they still pretend! I am so over spending every day at baseball, soccer, swimming, etc...I really hate sports, but I do it for my boys! Yes, we do lots of other things with them like arts & crafts, gardening, etc. but in the end they are still boys and would much rather be playing sports or shooting at each other! It makes me so sad to think this is what I will be surrounded by for the rest of my life! :-( I love them all so much, and I would honestly do anything of them, but I just can't understand how they think and the things they enjoy! I so desperately needed a little girl in my life...someone I could relate to on a different level. And now, I can't even buy things for DS4 that make me feel less cheated for now at least! I just wanted some pink, purple, hearts, flowers, cupcakes...anything! I know this will be our last child, and I honestly don't want more than 4 kids! It's just so hard when I realize that I will forever be alone in my house, sad to some extent, and will never feel complete!