im know you are a stronger woman then me i would never ever say otherwise. seriously i was a mess after my newborn died i couldn't even imagine lossing my 9 year old. i think they would have to lock me up and throw away the key. maybe im just too sensitive, maybe its all the easter stuff, maybe its the fact that im 24 weeks and still i know im not viable yet. i do apoligize if i offended anyone, that was not my intention and i do know what its like to feel that loss and sadness when you don't get your dg.
i pray this does not happen to anyone else but i know it will. someone will lose their child and it isn't right and it isn't fair. i don't want anyone to feel the guilt i feel. but i would trade a hundred sons to hold her again for 5 mins. and i so stand by the fact that a healthy son is better then lossing your daughter. i know it won't make the sadness go away for some ladies. but i was ventin.g i was feeling sorry for myself and i don't want anyone else to ever feel this way.
ladies if you got a boy when all you wanted was a girl then im so sorry, but please take comfort in the fact that you are blessed if your child doesn't die in your arms. that you might get a lifetime of enjoying him and for whatever reason you are meant to be his mama.
p.s. hubby got home and knew exactly what was wrong so he let me have a good long cry, which was good because i try to keep a smile on my face for the girls. then i watched DWTS cause derek can always make me feel better. thanks everyone