Just want to send hugs to all the new people on this thread and just say that if you have just found out I think it does get easier with time. I'm finding that actually my philosophy on life is totally changing based on what has happened. I feel rather niave that I used to think if I as good enough, wanted it enough, other people wanted it for me then I'd get it - seems ridiculous now! My friend was due yesterday, I would actually put money on the fact she is havnb a girl (it's her first) I just know she will... I think I'm okay with it, I'm totally expecting it... I feel bad for her cos she doesn't know we're having a boy and you can tell she is crossing her fingers I'm having a girl... She shouldn't feel bad, she hasn't done anything wrong! I'm just jealous! I wonder how I'll feel 10 years down the line,I wonder if I'll regret stoping at 3, it's so hard to tell. Sme days I find it easier that no one knows and I'm glad we've done that but some time I just want to get it over with! I have to keep stopping myself thinking about what could've been... It'll never get me any where, it never was! All in all, I think I'm feeling okay... Hope everyone out there is too!
Hi Ruby red, I felt the same way too! I used to think that how can I not get my ideal family because my husband and I are so in love, it would only be natural to get that perfect family next after our perfect love! And then it hit me, wow, no, that didn't happen! And I was upset because how could we not get that, everyone tells us we are perfect for each other, which means, we should have the best family too, lol, yes, silly concept, and for a while I would say, I have always been an honest person, isn't that something? Shouldn't I deserve to at least have some good outcomes? Now, I realized I was NOT given bad karma at all! My philosophy on life changed and I began to appreciate and love what I have and not what I think I need to have.