Hi everyone...a little bit about me if that's ok...I live in the UK, I'm almost 28 years old, I'm married to a wonderful man and have a gorgeous 16 month old little boy. I'm so glad I have found this forum as I feel I can truly express my feelings and concerns as I doubt the people around me would understand. I'm from an 'all girl family' and always assumed (foolish I know) that I would give birth to a little girl...that wasn't the case, my beautiful baby boy arrived 16 months ago and even though I love him more than anything, I still grieve for the little girl I 'assumed' I'd have. Sometimes I think I'm crazy, when out shopping I find myself looking into prams and get a feeling of relief when I see a little blue bundle in there and a terrible jealous feeling when I see a baby girl! I cried for days after I found out at the gender scan that I was carrying my son...I then cried when 2 close friends gave birth to their daughters a few months after my son was born.
Anyway, if you've got this far..thank you! I've been lurking on here for months and now my periods have returned (I'm still breastfeeding my son 1 bedtime feed and 1 morning feed), I have started to track ovulation. My first cycle lasted 41 days and I am currently tracking this cycle using the CBFM, temperature charting, CM observations and trying to master the cervix position! I know breastfeeding might hinder my charting but at the moment I am reluctant to stop as my son really enjoys it. We aren't officially TTC until Feb/March 2012 so I have a few cycles to chart.
I'm so scared of actually getting to TTC stage! Some days I think I'm just going to let nature decide then others I'm torn between Shettles and O+12...O+12 worries me due to my long cycles!
I hope I haven't bored you all to death and I'm really looking forward to chatting to you all over the next year.....baby dust ladies****