Am i just losing it?

Ok just want a few opinions. I have been losing my mind over this, even spoke to my DH about it and he said its all in my head (in a nice way tho) :). So to start from the beginning when i fell pregnant with my DD i went for a scan (very early scan at 3 weeks) and the sonographer said that there were 2 structures in the uterus and both had no foetal pole or foetal heart and that i probably was pregnant but estimated me at 3 weeks also said that the one structure could be a cyst. I was happy with that and so my pregnancy continued and i went to a gynea who did my scans and we always only saw one baby (Willow). When i asked my gynea what the other structure was she said it probably was a cyst. I carried on with my pregnancy until 27 weeks when my membranes ruptured early (Pprom) i was put in hospital and strict bed-rest! The strange thing is that my gynea was so confused because when she did a scan to check my babies amniotic fluid levels they were still the same, high and normal. So she said maybe it was a hind water that broke. So i remained on bed-rest and managed to carry to 40 weeks, but throughout the time was still leaking fluid, and every time they did a scan the levels were still the same and good. Even went to second Dr for opinion, but nothing. So at 40 weeks i delivered my beautiful DD. Had a wonderful labour nothing went wrong. I birthed the placenta and Dr even showed it to me. We all were happy. Then a week later when my DD was 6 days old i got really sick, Dr said it prob was mastitis and gave me antibiotics, i still got worse and started cramping really bad, and to cut a long story short i birthed this thing!!!! it was the size of an orange maybe even bigger! I was so scared and blood was everywhere! i didnt know what happened to me. I immediately put it into a bag and we rushed of to hospital where the nurses saw me. They told me the Dr would see me in the morning (as this was at night that it all happened) And they were so hush hush about everything! Everytime i would ask the nurses what it was, they said they were not allowed to tell me the Dr would talk to me in the morning! It was so frustrating! So when i saw the Dr she did a scan and booked me in for a D&C and told me it was scar tissue from the Pprom, and that she was sorry she didnt pick up on it. But i could tell she wasn't herself, she just kept on trying to convince me it was nothing. Just scar tissue. Now its been a year and i am plagued by thoughts of could that have been a twin? I do have twins in our family, so could it be possible? Is everything just coincidental? I hate the fact i didnt demand proof or take it for someone else to analyze. I hate myself for not looking at it properly, but i was just so freaked out i just shoved it in a bag. Could 2 different Drs have missed a twin if there was one? So the big question is what are the chances that it was just scar tissue or a twin. Please help i am driving myself crazy. Tx

wow thats scary, i hope you are ok. i can't imagine and doctor not picking up a twin in several ultrasound if it got to the size of an orange or larger. they picked mine up when it was no bigger then a grape they said and mine was already gone. i guess it could have been but surly they would have told you. im not a doctor so i can't say for sure. i can't imagine why they wouldn't tell you the truth though and it would seem odd that if the "twin" grew to the size of an orange nobody would notice that during an ultrasound or with a doppler.

Thanks newbaby2011, my husband said the same thing. I know the reasoning is so logical and the fact that two different Drs didn't pick anything up is a strong point, but for some reason its been bugging me. Maybe it is post traumatic stress over the whole incident, i was so scared and shaken up (being my first pregnancy i didn't know that something like scar tissue or even placenta could remain behind). Oh well at leased i know (you being the third) that it properly was just scar tissue. Thanks again for your reply. I really appreciate it! Tx!

you know what came to mind when reading your post this might be totally wrong but could it be that u have a second uterus undiagnosed thats why they only got glipses of the other structure and it wen`t un notice. The reason I say this is that a friend of mine keep having MC because the baby would umplant on the small underdevelop uterus, it took ages fir the docs to catch on what was happening but in the end they remove it and she had 4 more kids. I second reason I thought this was because you were saying about the fluid when your waters broke etc etc if it was another baby they should of told u know matter what !

my hind waters broke at 35 weeks and i was leaking so much i had to wear 2 pads together and change them hourly for a week !! i had scan every other day to check levels of amniotic fluid and it was always the correct amount, i asked why and the midwife told me it was because the fluid would reproduce itself, not sure wether the placenta done this.