Yes...it's only been a little over a week since I had the D&E. I just want to get through the holidays at this point. Holidays have no point right now. November is my birth month. My birthday is on Thanksgiving this year. Everyone keeps asking me what I want for my birthday. I don't care about my birthday!!! I want my baby back. If anyone can figure out how to do that, then that's what I want. It's hard to be thankful this month....but I am thankful for my children who are alive. Without them, I would not get through this. Still....even though they are here and living and breathing....I just think of him and how badly I want him back. It just sucks.