I'm feeling a bit freaked out too tbh. I have two special need kids 13yrs and 3yrs, the 13 year old is being a complete stroppy bugger and the 3 year old is just pure hard work. I thought it would take months and months if not years for me to conceive due to my pcos, but I fell first month after only once DTD. It took me and DH completely by suprise. I thought I'd have a bit more time to adjust to the idea. I'm just setting up a new business, I started college in september, and we're bang smack in the middle of trying to sell out house. I never thought it would happen this quick, and now it has I feel wrong for feeling stressed about it. I'm only 6 weeks today, but I've had terrible morning sickness for the last week, I'm exhausted, the pregnancy hormones have started my back problems off already so I'm not sleeping, and I am so so ratty. I know I am ratty, I can tell I'm short tempered but I just can't stop myself, I'm so argumentative, I wasn't like this last time. I've developed what I can only descrive as acne over my face, neck and shoulders which is getting me down. I just now don't feel I have the energy to do everything I'm supposed to be doing, and between you and me, I'm feeling really scared about how I'm going to cope this time with a new baby, plus 2 special needs kids, who will both be on school holidays shortly after beany is due and DH is going to be working all the time. I'm wondering what on earth we were thinking when we changed out minds and decided to TTC. Don't get me wrong, it's a bit exciting, but at the same time, practically no one knows I'm pregnant, as we planned on announcing after having a 16 week sexing scan. So I feel like crap, I'm tired, sick, feeling pretty useless and can't even turn to our family and friends for support as no one knows. It's a double edged sword, if I tell my MIL she will bend over backwards to help, but then she also will not give me any personal space at all as she know's I'm high risk of mc so last time she was stuck to me like a limpit and I felt crowded.
There's so many women out there desperate to conceive that I feel like a total and utter cow moaning about conceiving so easily. I dunno, I just feel so stressed. xx