Well, long story short, I'm here because of my GD. I was lurking for awhile as a non-member but recently joined when I had a 16 week ultrasound that said I was having my second boy. I was/am very disappointed but since not many people understand my disappointment, I'm forced to hide it. Even now, 2 weeks after that ultrasound, I'm still sad that I'm not pregnant with a girl but EVERYONE else thinks I should just be over it. My hubby doesn't understand and feels as if I am rejecting HIM and baby...so, it's hard to talk to him w/o him getting upset. But that's not the reason for my post.
We've pretty much all but made the decision to start TTC a girl in 2012...directly after we have this baby. I'm struggling with it because I believe that children should have at least a couple years w/ mom and dad before a new baby comes along. I waited 4 years to start TTC #2 and here I am, not even half-way through this pregnancy and planning #3. I think it's really sad that I'm not thinking of my baby boy as "good enough" I mean...if he was, wouldn't I give him the time I think my children need? Wouldn't I be enjoying this pregnancy instead of thinking of my next baby and how THAT baby will be a girl and I will finally be happy? We honestly don't have the money to go high-tech but here I am thinking of ways to get around that.
I am aboslutely miserable that this baby isn't a girl. Don't get me wrong, I know I will love this child but that's not the point. Almost all of us will love our children regardless of their sex. What gets me is that I can't even look at girl stuff without becoming sad and depressed...my friend is due 3 or 4 days after me and she finds out what she is having next week. I'm sorry to say that if she is having a girl, I will probably break off contact with her. Not completely, but enough that I don't have to hear about how happy she is and how she got exactly what she wanted.
I never meant to be this way...at all. I never imagined that my dreams would be crushed twice in a lifetime. I never thought that I would be willing to do WHATEVER it takes to get a girl. I never imagined that I'd have 3 kids. I don't want to be that person but I AM.
Where do I even start with swaying? Should I just say screw it and save the money to go high-tech? How many high-tech opposites are there? Is there a way to sue if you get the opposite or are you just SOL?