Thanks southern butterfly.....we found out it is another boy. I am coping now that the shock is wearing off. Maybe you can send me some encouraging words as you already have 3? Are you going for more? Or are you content? Just wondering what it will be like for me once he arrives! Thanks!
Well first off I have to say a huge Congratulations! You aren't going to believe it yet, but this little guy is going to be such an amazing addition to your family. When I was going through extreme GD while pregnant with my DS3 I was told over and over what a special bond other mothers had with their third sons, I didn't buy it... and here I am saying the same thing. I love all my boys with all my heart but the bond I have with my little DS3 is just different. From the moment he was born I couldn't bare to be away from him. I look at him and try to imagine if he had been a girl and it breaks my heart because if I had had a girl I wouldn't have him. I didn't get to this place easily, it came with time and many many tears. The GD never really went away until he was in my arms, and from then on I was just so thankful that I didn't get what I thought I wanted, but instead got what I really needed.
You will get there too, but for now the best thing you can do is let yourself greive and cry, its ok. The anger and sadness is a part of healing and you have to get through that before you can move on. You will get there, I promise. It may seem distnat now but the day will come when you realize what an amazingly beautiful family you have and couldn't imagine it any different.
As for my family I do feel content as far as not having a girl. For now I am perfectly ok with that and honestly am very comfortable with being an all boy mom. I really don't swoon over pink in the stores and when I see little girls playing I turn to look at my boys and think to myself "whats the big deal?" lol. Why did I want one of those so bad when I have such sweet handsome little guys? Part of me would love one more baby but I don't think its going to happen (at least not planned). Its really nothing to do with gender but more because I just don;t feel like I'm ready to be done having children. Time will tell with that though.
Take care of yourself and come here for support anytime you need it