Ow bless you! know doubt I would have been experiencing the same feelings as you if I were to concieve another boy, it must be really hard. Once he is born and you see him like your other boys you will fall head over heals in love with him, I'm sure.
Dont rule out anymore as yet - see how you feel after this one is born. You live in the states so its alot easier for you than us mums from the uk.. just think about it!!
I dont think I read your sway as i've had a little break from IG for a while, it hard seeing everyone announce their pregnancies when where still trying! where do you think you went wrong? did you abstain or do frequent again?
How long were you taking Aspirin? apparently it help to create more blood flow to the uterus to help with implantation.
Yes Jan 31st would have been my due date - It was a sad day :(
big hugs hon xxxx