Sorry to do this to everyone but I need a rant!!
I am now 1 day overdue, this is the first time Ive ever gone over and wow it is HORRIBLE!!! I have had 2 stretch and sweeps, I was booked in Fri last week by a very kind MW to break my waters, only to find when we went to do it that bub had disengaged, apparently hes back down now but because I am in public system every visit is with a different MW or Doc and NONE of the others will agree to induce, I have had contractions (real ones, they have monitered me a few times to check on bub and always say "oh yeah they are good strong contractions, something will happen soon!!") BULLCRAP for around 5-8 hours EVERYDAY for over a week, they get down to 3 mins apart and really strong, and then they stop again. My back is excrutiating from the constant contracting, I cannot sleep, my 2 older boys are home from school for xmas hols now so I am EXHAUSTED - and they keep saying "just wait, youll go anyday now"
It would be alright if it wasnt for the fact that I feel like I am in labor for a good half of everyday, I cant function!! And how long can this go on before bub starts to get distressed?? And if it just WILL not progress, doesnt that suggest something isnt right? I am so sure they will make me go to the regulation 10 days over, then induce anyway. WHY NOT NOW???? I had to be induced with DS2 for same reason, labor would not progress, exactly same thing was happening but my nice small town country Doc could see it was too much for me and broke my waters 4 days early, bam 4 hours later all over, and bub and I were perfectly healthy. I dont think Im going to have the energy left to labor when they finally agree to damn well let it happen this time, and I 'll probalby end up with a CS or something, because STUPID docs wont listen....... I know what my body is trying to say!!!!!! [:'(] Oh and I have tried every home induction method know to man, walked my butt off, curries, pineapple, sex, castor oil, and.... NOTHING.
Sorry girls, just needed to get it out. Even if I do get to the 10 days over mark, that means only 9 days to go, I just have to focus on that I guess. Im just getting so scared that something isnt right. Besides, my 4 day early bub was 7 pound 10 ounces and I am just 5 foot and normally 50 kg, the longer they let this bub go the bigger he gets, what if thats already the trouble, hes too big to fit in my pelvis?? Nobody seems bothered to check anything like that, but my hubby was 10 pound with a huge head, I keep thinking what if this is the boy that takes after Dad??? ARGH, I just feel like I cant handle the stress anymore.........