I did not find out what I was having on purpose. I knew that I would look on the monitor and find out she was a 'she' and be pretty upset. So I decided to wait until the birth because I knew that when I saw the baby's sweet face in person, the GD would not be as hard. I won't lie, it was somewhat difficult in the hospital. When I first saw her, I was overcome with joy at my beautiful healthy girl. But the GD was there. My husband didn't care really, so that helped a lot. I let myself have one complete break down the 2nd night in the hospital when the baby was in the nursery and my DH was home with the other two girls. I cried and cried and cried, not over my beautiful third baby girl who through no fault of her own was a girl, but over the son I would never have. I could not believe the swaying and years of research into how to get a boy did not work! So I let myself have a complete melt down and that was it. Time to move on. Count my blessings instead of be devastated over what was never going to be.
My 3rd little lady is now almost 6 months old. Do I love her to death? Yes. Do I mourn over the son I will never have? Absolutely.You will feel so much better when you see the flesh and blood baby girl in person. It will be hard, the GD does not just magically go away. But it does get better. It gets easier. When you see your three beautiful girls together, you will feel better. When you meet a little boy with the boy's name that you were going to use, it may set you back. But you push on. My husband said to me "if having three girls is the worst thing that happens to us in our lives, we should be really thankful." I focus on this all the time. You will love your new baby girl and it will get easier. I promise. Try to focus on the delivery room right now, seeing that new baby for the first time. It is so joyful. Don't let the fact that a penis won't be there cloud the birth of your newest miracle! As I said, the GD won't disappear, but it will get easier. And one day you will be just plain old happy being the mom of girls! Good luck to you and keep up your spirits during this last trimester. Your baby is WORTH IT!! :)