SU/MSU Buddy Group-November

BabyBobadoo:

Rachel..... thank you for posting the pics.  I love seeing the ultra sound pictures....  I wish I could help you with the nub.  I always get on the predictions board and try to guess I am probably 0 for 12 or so!!!    I never get them right!!! 

Thank you BB. I am so sorry AF showed again this month. It really is making me nuts that you are not pregnant yet. I know it is all in God's time, and it will be perfect when it happens but I just wish so hard that it is soon for you.

gardangels:

Rachel- I posted my u/s pics on the guessing forum

I will go look. And yes, any combo will be magical.

I hope you let us know when you get your 18 weeks U/S.

 PD- I can't even imagine how frustrated you are right now. Whether you are pregnant or not you have had a lot of let-downs and it is exhausting. I am hoping and praying that your temp shoots up tomarrow. Please take care of yourself.

Aw, Rachel. Thank you so much. I really needed to hear that.  How are you feeling?

 PD- Your welcome sweet woman. I just can't believe how long you, Anna, Luv4boys and Babybobadoo have been at this. My heart breaks every month when you guys get BFN. Seriously, I can't stand it. You guys have worked so incrediblly hard.

I am up and down and crazy as hell. Hormones are insane. One minute I feel awesome and then two minutes later I am crying and I don't know why. My two year old is in a screaming, hitting, biting, pinching phase right now and he is terrorizing my four year old, who in responce to the two year old runs and screams and cries "help, help" all day. I don't know whether to laugh or cry, or just commit myslef...because apparantly I am going to do this all over again in 6 months. Three kids under 5? Am I crazy??

PD- I'm so sorry, i feel so frustrated for you, Trust me- i know and feel your pain. It is so so hard to think you have a chance at a bfp then is runs away out of your reach, and it feels like you were so so so close. You already start to figure out the due date, when to tell loved ones, etc etc...you tell yourself not to but for me the thoughts are in my head as soon as i see that glimmer of a bfp. It is so hard, but you will get there. I just always try and remember back to tamara saying 'a bfn always meant a chance to improve my sway next time'...i try and hold on to this. You will get there, you will have your DD soon i just know it. love and hugs sweetie for this hard time .......besides...you may not even be out yet!!!! xx

rachel idris:

BabyBobadoo:

Rachel..... thank you for posting the pics.  I love seeing the ultra sound pictures....  I wish I could help you with the nub.  I always get on the predictions board and try to guess I am probably 0 for 12 or so!!!    I never get them right!!! 

 

Thank you BB. I am so sorry AF showed again this month. It really is making me nuts that you are not pregnant yet. I know it is all in God's time, and it will be perfect when it happens but I just wish so hard that it is soon for you.

Thank you Rachel you are so sweet.  and thank you everyone else.  This is such a great board your support is wonderful.  For those that have gotten a BFP don't feel that you cannot come here as we need EVERYONE's support because you have SUCCEEDED!!!  What better advice than from someone who has gotten a BFP!!

I have three more attempts left then I am done.   I know that everyone says that you should not put a time limit but the funny thing is that I had said the exact same thing last year.  When I first started swaying I was only going to go until January and here I am saying the same thing again  the only difference is this time DH and I BOTH are saying this which means that it is going to be January.  We are both really tired of the diet (which we have been on for 15 months, not consecutive but with the 6 week break) and it is awful.

My next attempt, I am hoping to do a cutoff and 0+12..... I am doing this because I cannot seem to hit 0+12!!

Good luck to everyone!!!

rachel idris:

I just can't believe how long you, Anna, Luv4boys and Babybobadoo have been at this. My heart breaks every month when you guys get BFN. Seriously, I can't stand it. You guys have worked so incrediblly hard.

Hi ladies...I havent been on here for a few days.....my computer has been on but not me!!  I am so hoping to see a BFP PD...I am still waiting!!  I am so sorry BabyB about af showing up!!  I know how you feel, we all do!!  It fricken sucks!!!  I too am done in the next few months!!  It is too much for me!  I should be done having kids wiht having 4 already, but I just cant shake wanting a daughter!  I have had 4 boys...am I really going to get my little girl?  Do you all think I will?  Am I just nuts to do this?  See the more time it takes, the more time I have to think about all of this.  I do want another baby....I love the baby stage, but I have 4 boys....I really just want to do this for a girl!!  I wish God could really see how happy I would be if I got pregnant with a girl.  I would be feel complete and it would show throughout everything in my life.  I know that sounds stupid, but it is sooooooooooooooooo true.  

Okay...enough ranting.  I just saw all of us old timers on here still trying to do this and how heart breaking it is for all of us every month and my emotions just got to me!!  Sorry ladies!!  I hope that there is a reason for all of us for this happening every month and that our dreams do come true soon for us!!

I am praying for all of us!!!  And all the ladies with their new BFP'S!!!!

Forgot to add......my ph is way low and I think that is why I am not getting pregnant.  This month I will do SU...no TBM but douching 5 mins after su insertion if over 5.  I am also doing a 4 day and maybe a 3 day cut-off this month and that is it!!!

wow ladies. All of u are awesome. I would not have made it this far without all your support & understanding. I am happy that the women who got bfp's are still checking in on us to help us in any way possible. Bless you!

Luvr4B~ You said the exact words that I have felt before. I already have 3 boys...is this all for waste? Wouldn't God see how my happiness would pour over into everything? I feel the same exact way. 

Anna~You are so right...you get hopeful & start figuring out the due date & when you can tell family, etc. I was totally doing that.  I'm seeing my brother & his family for the first time in 2 years (sad, isn't it?). Anyways, I would've been seeing them right around the 10-11 wk point and was hoping that I would be able to tell them in person rather than on the phone.  Now, I'm not sure that I would tell them for my next cycle because you never know what will happen. I don't want to tell family that we're pg until I am in a 'safe' zone. Kwim?  

Rachel, I understand those "great" 2 yr old phases. My 2 yr old is in the same phase right now but his 4 year old brother does it back to him....therefore, putting the both of them in time out. Ah, the days. You are not crazy. When ds3 was born, ds2 was just barely 2 yrs old & ds1 was 5 1/2. It will get easier, I promise...I think as our kids age, we 'trade' problems. When they are young, I think it's more a physical exertion & as they get older, it's more of a mental exertion. Does that make any sense? 

BabyB~I understand how you want to put a time limit on ttc....it can be extremely stressful & take a toll on the both of you.  If you and your dh are at peace with your decision, then I'm happy for you.

Af arrived overnight so I am onto next month. I am surprisingly not too bad emotionally.  Yesterday was awful & got my crying in because I knew the baby was gone. I know that I was pg last week. I could tell a difference in my body by Friday morning but I just didn't want it to be true. I was afraid that if I said anything out loud that it would come true. I might sound crazy but it is the way I felt.  It just makes me wonder what's going wrong. This is the 2nd time within 3 cycles that this has happened. I will be seeing my dr on Dec.2 which will be right around my O time. I'm hoping that he will see something during that appt which will help us. He's really great at listening & is really "on top" of things...so I'm wishing that he will know what to do to help us.

I am so sorry PD that af showed!!  ((((HUGS))).  I really hope you get this figured out!!  That is so weird that this has happened twice to you!!  Something is going on!  Well, we both are onto another month!  Here to positive energy and baby dust to us!!!  Hang in there...I know I am...by a thread!!!    I am not going to stress about these next few months, especially when O time for me is smack dab during the holidays both NOV and DEC!!!!  Yikes!!!  Oh well, all we can do now is pray and hope that our dreams are answered!!!

BTW...I have done the whole due date thing too.  Now I guess I am shooting for Aug. and already have my 2nd sons bday then, and ny mom, sister and brother!!!  I do like Aug. for a birthday too!!  At this point any month is good!!

Luvr4boyz:

I have had 4 boys...am I really going to get my little girl?  Do you all think I will?  Am I just nuts to do this?  See the more time it takes, the more time I have to think about all of this.  I do want another baby....I love the baby stage, but I have 4 boys....I really just want to do this for a girl!! 

This is so hard Luv. I know how you feel. I don't have 4 boys but I have two and I was not wanting another boy...only a girl. When I was pregnant last I told God that if it was a boy I wanted to M/C. Well I did, and I regreted ever saying that. I wanted that baby so bad. I didn't even realize it until after I m/c. Now I am thinking that this baby is a boy and I am really sad at the prospect that I might never have a daughter. I know it is too early to know for sure, but still what if this is a boy? What if I never have a daughter?

I don't know if you will get your girl. I think that you need to be willing to have another boy if you are going to continue. I wish that wasn't the case, but EGS is not 100% (I know you know that).  It is such a conundrum. We all are in it. We all have to be willing to have whatever God gives us. Man I wish it was a girl for me, and you and all the other wonderful ladies on here who dream about having a daughter.

Luvr4boyz:

Forgot to add......my ph is way low and I think that is why I am not getting pregnant.  This month I will do SU...no TBM but douching 5 mins after su insertion if over 5.  I am also doing a 4 day and maybe a 3 day cut-off this month and that is it!!!

I think you are right about your ph being too low. 

PurpleDream:

Rachel, I understand those "great" 2 yr old phases. My 2 yr old is in the same phase right now but his 4 year old brother does it back to him....therefore, putting the both of them in time out. Ah, the days. You are not crazy. When ds3 was born, ds2 was just barely 2 yrs old & ds1 was 5 1/2. It will get easier, I promise...I think as our kids age, we 'trade' problems. When they are young, I think it's more a physical exertion & as they get older, it's more of a mental exertion. Does that make any sense? 

Yes, that makes sence.  I am just in over my head right now. DH is in ful-time school, calculus, chemistry and physics...I never see him. I am exhausted and overwhelmned. Just getting through one day at a time. I am with the kids all day every day. I need help but we can't afford it right now, not for the next five years while DH is in school. Right now was not the ideal time to have another child but I sooooo wanted a girl, and I din't want to waste my fertility. So now I am wondering if I made the right decision. Especially since this baby could very well be a boy. Three boys (four inculding my husband) and all under 5 years old. Sounds insane to me.

Thank you for relating to me and telling me it will get easier.

I am sooooooo sorry AF showed. I was reading that 50% of pregnancies end in M/C. About 25-30% of those happen before most people even knwo they are pregnant. But even knowing that I can't imagine how hard this is for you.