14 months of swaying and 2 losses later...

 and I'm having another girl. [:'(] I'm feeling absolutely gutted right now. I've wasted the past 18 months of my life planning, praying, wishing and losing babies and where do I end up? Pregnant with a girl which is exactly where I would have been if I never did any of this in the first place. I've wasted hundreds of dollars and even more time. 

 I really thought I was prepared for this. I thought any baby would be a blessing after my losses, but it turns out that I don't actually feel that way after all. It's like rubbing salt in a wound.

 ETA: The 19w u/s shows this little one is all BOY!

Hugs. I am sorry you are feeling this way. In time you will feel better.I too am scared to have another swayed opposite after all the pills & potions I have invested in. Vent as much as you need to...xo

I'm so sorry, Kelly. I wish I knew what to say. It isn't fair. (((Hugs))).

So sorry you didn't hear blue. I don't know what to say either. Just that I am thinking about you.

 It's a tough road. Just the otherday I was trying to understand why we are put through these things only to feel we aren't rewarded in the end, but I am afraid I have no answers.

(((hugs)))

Tanya

Oh Kelly, this is really not what I expected to hear.  I'm so sorry you've been down this long hard road.  You deserve to feel angry, sad and frustrated right now. Throughout your journey you have shown us all that you are such a strong, postive and determined women, and I have no doubt that you will rise above all of this and go forward making the most of what life has handed you.  Remember we are here for you.

Kelly, I am so sorry for what you are feeling. Thank you for updating us and I hope and pray you find peace and happiness.

I am so sorry for your losses and that you didn't hear boy!

I am so so sorry . 

I'm Sorry.  I will be praying it gets better in time. God Bless Hun!!!!!

I am so sorry Kelly

(((HUGS)))

 I was in the same boat. We TTC for two years and had two losses then I had a surgery after recovery we did ericcson and then found out it was our third girl. Just to give you a ray of sunshine once DD3 was born we have been head over heels in love with her. I can't describe how different it has been. 

I hope you feel the same as we have when your little one arrives. I know how bad it feels to go though so much and your dream be crushed. 

I am So sorry Kelly....Hope you find peace ......((((HUGS)))),I am very shocked....

I dont know what to say.  Your in my thoughts and prayers. Big hugs!

I'm so sorry. This is so hard. It's sadly ironic that so many women here want girls, and here you want a boy and are having a girl.  At least you are among friends who understand here. Give it time - that always helps. And we're here along the way - to commiserate now, and to celebrate with you when she's born.  Hang in there.