This is how I feel lately. I have a very strong feeling that things aren't going to work out for me and that I have turned my life upside down for NOTHING. I can't wait for my life to be back to normal again. I have such a greater appreciation for what I do have now. I realize how lucky I am to be able to be a sahm. I'm looking forward to my sister and her kids visiting me in June. My boys and I are going to go back home ( Cape Cod ) for the summer. Everytime I feel like i'm at a breaking point, I try and remember that this (working) isn't going to be forever. I CAN do this for another few months if I have to. I started the BC pill today and my nurse coordinator called me. She is putting my calendar in the mail today. I will have to start my Lupron shots on March 7th,so I really need to know soon if I will get my "partime B" status by then. I'm keeping my fingers and toes crossed!!!!