So I did it, I bought something for our future daughter. I have a girlfriend who makes those cute lil bows. We were having a shower for her and another friend who just literally had a girl 4 days ago. So much pink in that room. I had my 7 month old som with me and here were four lil girls in their pink/brown cute girliue outfits, playing with their tinker bells and strollers and my heart just skipped beats knowing that in 16 short months, I will get my DD.
So today at BRU, I made the mistake of looking for outfits to go with my bows I purchased from my friend. Then my hubby says you are so obsessed. I know I get fixated, I know I get a lil crazy when something I want is so close yet so far away. I also know he meant it in a half hearted silly way. But it was also a warning, slow down... you know? I think as much as he wants a girl, he doesnt want me hurt if we dont get one.
I am terrified something will go wrong and things will fall thru, that we wont have any girls in our PGD, that I wont respond well due to the PCOS, that they wont implant. SO many what ifs, then I think what if I get my dream, what if it is a one hit wonder, what if....... they dont have that outfit LOL. Anyway, had to ramble on.