My parner's gender dissapointment
After a short battle with cancer, my partners father passed away in mid April. My partner has taken on the responsibility of completing the task of restoring his dads antique car, his pride and joy. He has also restored a very old chainsaw and has cleaned out and organised the shed (it was a massive task!) It's now that he has lost his dad that he understands how much a son would mean to him, who will he pass his unfinished tasks onto, sure the girls could do it, but what are the odds of them really wanting to? Lets be honest, boys and girls are very different!
I had my 14 yo nephew and his friend over a few nights ago after his band had practise, it was something watching DP with my nephews friend talk about guitars and music. I really want him to have that with a son of his own.
I suppose for my first entry I will go into a little bit of detail about where I am at and how I got here...
In 2006 my partner and I decided we would try to add a little boy to our family. We already had 3 girls and we both would love a little man to even things up in the family. I went on a gender diet and used eggwhites and douche and fell pregnant on the first cycle. Eight and a half weeks passed and I began bleeding, the next day I lost my little bundle.
I wanted to try again straight away, But it took another eight months to finally fall pregnant again. Needless to say gender swaying for extended periods is extremely stressful! Finally seeing those two lines on that stick were such a relief! I even went out of my way to ensure the lines were blue!!
Fast forward a few months and I am told, "yep, looks like a girl". My world cam crashing down! I was heartbroken, DP took it so well and wondered why I reacted so badly. These feelings lasted quite a while, I didn't want to be pregnant anymore, we told no-one that we were having a girl and I am glad we didn't.
Naming a forth girl proved very difficult, but we eventually named her after 12 days, I was so disappointed in myself that I found it so hard to name her... she really is a treasure, an it is because of her that I am considering another baby.