Sissy's MicroSort Journey

Surely THIS is NOT labor!?!?!

2005-08-16T23:37:00Z

It was an uneventful evening after the afternoon stress test I had just had. I got my boys in bed, my dh was playing online poker, I took a nice warm bath and got into bed to watch the news! I was watching the preparations for the "rose bowl" parade...as after all MY ALMA MATER was actually playing in the rose bowl!! It was 10:17pm and I felt a sharp pain.....hmmm I laid there....thinking.....who is kicking my bladder?? These dang twins!?!?! At 10:27 exactly 10 minutes later, I had another pain.....NOT a kick in the bladder!

I yelled for dh and rolled out of bed! I managed to get a pair of capri's and a t-shirt on and called my neighbor! I still wasn't sure this was "labor" because it came on so different and so weird?? She had just had a baby a year earlier so I was talking on the phone with her describing my pain.....when I REALIZED....THIS IS IT! I asked her to come over....and then I paced the house and waited....what the hell was taking her so long....she lives RIGHT next door! She got there and apologized that she was so sleepy she had actually gotten dressed instead of walking across the yard in her robe! LOL (but not at the time)

We got in the car and called my daddy.....dh said it was 10:50! He also called my 3 closest friends! We got to the hospital and he stopped at the ER and went and got me a wheel chair! I got into the wheel chair and INSTEAD of him wheeling me in....he went and parked the car and left me sitting outside the damn ER in the wheelchair! I began to push the wheelchair into the ER BY MYSELF....because I could feel something coming out down SOUTH!!!

My dh showed up behind me bags and all....which I immediately told him he could have gotten later...cuz here he is trying to push me and hold a bunch of damn bags! GRR!!!

We got into the ER where the stupid guy says....is she registered? DH says yeah...and I already called upstairs to tell them we were on our way...cuz she is a twin breech delivery and it is suppose to be a c-section! The guy has some lady start wheeling me towards the elevator as DH has to actual "check" me in with the registar! IT was 11:07pm

By the time I got up to the OB floor....only 4 floors in our little redneck hospital....I could not even TALK....my face was beat red....they wanted me to get into a gown and lay down...and they had those monitors ready to put on my 2 babies! YEAH RIGHT!! I barely managed to get my capri's off between contractions....they were ONE on top of the OTHER!! I was screaming in PAIN.....the nurse needed to check me....but my body was clenched so tight I could NOT get my legs to open....my dh and she pryed my legs open to check me and I was an 8 with a bulging bag! Right when she took her hand away the bag BUSTED!!!

She began to scream over the intercom to get anyone and everyone to help her get me to the OR!!!! (twin deliveries are always in the OR in case of complications) As they were wheeling my bed down the hall, I kept saying "its coming out" and they kept saying "blow out your mouth"....I was NOT pushing but I swear my body was pushing on its own!!!

The doc was NOT there, the anesthesiologist was NOT there! ACCKK!!!! PAIN!!!!! LET ME DIE!!!!!

They did NOT let my dh go in to the OR...which they normally would have so I knew this was NOT a good scene!

They get me to the OR and tell me to "ooch" over onto that metal table!!?! What the *#$%? I can't ooch! I am in too much pain and a baby is hanging out of me!?!? Somehow I managed to get onto that tiny metal OR table and next thing I saw was the DOC between my legs....I said where is the epidural guy you can't cut me open I am NOT numb....and he said I ain't cutting you open....her butt is half way out and her ankles are up at her ears.....you gotta push her out in ONE push or she could get stuck and we don't want that!! OOH GREAT!!! THIS could possibly be the DD I went through all this trouble for and now she could DIE!?!?

I beared down and pushed and prayed to GOD to let me die if I had too (the pain felt like it) but let the baby live! All of the sudden I felt immense RELIEF! The baby was out.....but no crying?!?! I screamed IS IT ALIVE!?! And from across the room I heard.....yes......it is.....everything is gonna be fine....and then I said....."what is it" and they said "ITS A GIRL"! I laid back and thought....holy cow....Microsort works!?!?

That was at 11:27PM!!!!! Kassidi Joelle was here. My dh finally came in the room...i was asking for him the whole time and the doc said to push again, which I did and at 11:30pm, Kallista Jean was here! My dh got to cut her cord at least!

So from 10:17pm to 11:27 was my TWIN labor! Even writing this I still can NOT believe it all happened the way it did! I have to have my dh remind me of things because I was in so much pain I blocked ALOT of it out!!

When dh went out to the waiting room to tell everyone, they had just started the coffee and thought he was coming out while they "prepped" me for the c-section! When he said they are here and they are GIRLS....they FELL OUT!!!

Thank god my daddy wasn't back there while the EXCITMENT was going on.....I am his only blood family and he would NOT have delt well KNOWING what I was going through!!

Everyone came into the room and marveled at the girls....I was so tired I was just in a sense of "melencholy"...not the EUPHORIA....I thought I would be in!

And I was still VERY upset that I did NOT make it to January! Sorry Momma!!! I got to go home on New Years Day, and then the PPD set in....and I hate to say that almost 7 months later....I am still suffering from it.....but it is BETTER!!

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE IN ACHIEVING THEIR GENDER DREAMS!!

xoxo,
Sissy

HORRIBLE NON STRESS TEST

2004-12-30T14:00:00Z

If any of you are familiar with non-stress tests, there is nothing to them! Well, not for NORMAL people that is.......I had one last week and it went JUST fine! But todays was ANOTHER story!!!

I began feeling bad in the elevator on the way up to OB...maybe it was all that c-section talk!! They get me all hooked up and try to find both heartbeats and have me lay there long enough to make sure all is okay just like last week....when I PASSED FLAT OUT! Yep....started to sweat, get nauseated....and fainted! I was already laying down so they lowered the head of the bed and called every nurse available in there!

I had no idea what to think when I awoke other than OMG....why am I passing out over this?? (I have a history of passing out when in pain...but I wasn't in any pain) Well, about the time I began to come back around....here it goes again....passed out for the second time. My heartrate was going down the babies were in distress! YIKES! When the doc ran in....he said to get me on my back.....which is when things began to "get better" for me!

All of that baby weight was pushing on the main artery that flows from your heart to your feet or whatever, so when I laid on my side, I felt 100% better!!! The doc came down to my head and said....."what are you doing"? And I said....I told you I can't handle a section and I need some anxiety pills for the weekend....and he said.....you know I can't do that....and you will do just fine! I'll see you Monday morning if not before!!!

ARGG!!! The rest of the test went fine and the babies and I went home!

39 weeks is HERE!!!

2004-12-30T11:30:00Z

WOO HOO!!! Today is Dec 30th....If I can make it 36 more hours I will have a January baby!!!!

Doc scheduled my c-section for Monday January 3rd. He can't schedule it for for the 1st or 2nd since that is the weekend and our hospital won't schedule sections on the weekends! He says if I go into labor he will do the section on the weekend...but he just can't schedule it for then!

I was beginning to get nauseated and faint feeling just thinking about my section on Monday morning...man this is gonna be a long weekend!

Up to OB for another non stress test!

38 WEEKS

2004-12-23T20:26:00Z

OMG! I have made it this far! Maybe I really will make it to the new year! Wouldn't that be the best...to have a January birthday and for these twins to be GIRLS!!!

Had a non stress test today....everything looks good....doc will see me next week. Still looking at a c-section cuz presenting twin has NOT flipped and doesn't have room to now!! DANG IT!!

Please let me get through christmas!!

I am at 36 weeks now!

2004-12-08T22:00:00Z

Doc says he can't believe it...apparantly he didn't listen to me, or doesn't know how hard headed and control freakish I am! I want JANUARY!!!!

On to next week!

31 days till 2005!!!

2004-12-01T16:00:00Z

Well,

It's December 1st! If I can make it 30 more days I'll have a 2005 baby and a January baby which was momma's birthday month!! Doc keeps saying I won't see January and even says he thinks I'll deliver around the 11th or so! YAH RIGHT! I'll show him!! I am seeing him weekly now! Getting bigger and harder to breathe, but still want to make it!

Made it through Thanksgiving!

2004-11-29T19:54:00Z

Well, the doc is going out of town for turkey day and is afraid I will go into labor when he is gone! He really wants to deliver these twins!! Have I mentioned yet that the presenting twin is breech so if she doesn't turn and SOON...I will end up in a c-section! I am scared to death of a c-section....so this baby better TURN!!!

Still Hanging on!

2004-11-20T17:00:00Z

I keep hearing about how NO one ever makes it to 40 weeks with twins! GRR!!!! I want to make it to January!! I wish they would just stop talking about it! I bet no one ever had their kids on their due dates either...well I have done it TWICE!!!

I am starting to put on some weight, so that is good, I guess :(

So on to another week of "cooking"!

I wanna make it to JANUARY

2004-11-10T19:36:00Z

The doc has said all along that I will NOT see January of 2005! I am hoping he is WRONG! I have gained 20lbs so far and the babies weigh over 3lbs a peice! They are right on track! However, I am NOW starting to see why women don't/can't carry twins to 40 weeks!

Everytime I move it HURTS! I can NOT sleep anymore...this is WAY different than being 32 weeks with a singleton! I saw the doc 2 weeks ago and I was already dialated to a 1! DANG IT!!

I am NOT having any "pre-term" labor thank god...but I can't do A THING! I spend most of my days in the recliner!! Uugh!!

Please Lord...let these be 2005 babies!!

The 3rd Trimester BEGINS!

2004-10-10T18:36:00Z

I am suffering from HORRIBLE depression! I am so worried about being a good mother to 4 kids, and the finances, and just all the time it is going to take! Dad and Kay are a big help...but NOT like "momma" would have been?? DH is doing all he can do...but ONE person can only do so much!

I hope this feeling ends really soon...it is horrible to feel depressed over something that I ASKED for!!!!

Feeling Better

2004-08-10T18:35:00Z

Well I am well into my second trimester with this twins and the morning sickness is finally letting up, or at least becoming "tolerable"! I have NOT gained ANY weight...I am fat already so I guess that is okay....the doc says the babies weights are just fine though! So far so good!

Nuchal Scan is FINE!!

2004-07-06T18:34:00Z

Well,

My nuchal scan came back saying that each baby had a 1 and 2500 chance of down's! Those odds are good enough for me to feel at "ease" and SKIP the amnio! HURRAY!!!!

Now if this dang morning/all day sickness would just EASE up some...maybe I could "enjoy" this more!

I am gonna die before this is OVER

2004-06-28T18:34:00Z

I have been horribly sick since heck...i can't remember at this point when I wasn't sick! It is like constant dizziness, nauseausness, tiredness....reminds me of a cancer patient or something!!

Is this what they called morning sickness? I thought I had it with the boys...but NOT this! This is all day long...all week long...will it ever end....why did I do this type sickness??

I had a nuchal scan last Friday...I have to wait 10 days for the results! Uugh! I wish I wasn't 35 and carrying twins! I know I will love them once they are here...BUT right now I can't see past the fear and sickness to appreciate the joy? Not having maternity insurance does NOT help my fears either!!

I do NOT want to do an amnio...I am not sure which scares me more...the needles (2 of them) or the risk of miscarriage because the truth is...if one of these babies is handicapped I don't know if I have what it takes to raise that type of special needs child.

So..I am soo hopeful after paying $700 for that nuchal that it will RAISE my risk factor to the point that I will feel comfortable NOT doing an amnio and be able to rest easy in the rest of my pregnancy.

So I'll wait and wait....for 10 days to go by.

You have GOT to be KIDDING ME!

2004-06-01T18:33:00Z

I arrive at the doc's office alone for my second u/s. I sure hope the heart is still beating. As the doc begins the vaginal u/s he informes me of a cyst on my ovary and begins to measure it. He tells me it will go away on its own! He then continues to search around and find the heart beating! YAH! I am 9 weeks and the heart is beating....this baby may really become a reality.

About that time he says..."oh and heartbeat #2"

WHAT the @#%?? You have got to be kidding me? You told me 2 weeks ago there was only one? About that time I must have left my body...cuz I was certainly "somewhere else" for the rest of that appt.

As I left his office and walked to my car all sorts of things were going through my head..... I have already told everyone there is ONLY one! I can't afford 2 babies....I am scared of premature babies and high risk mulitple births? This is JUST not happening to me!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First U/S

2004-05-18T18:33:00Z

I saw the doc 2 weeks ago for an u/s to rule out multiples. He did a quick vaginal u/s and said "one healthy heartbeat". Then he got called out to an emergency. He asked me to come back in 2 weeks because he likes the 8 week scan better (i'll be 9 weeks in 2 weeks?). Okey Dokey....my dh and I breath a sigh of relief...thank god it is ONE and the heart is beating...maybe it is our elusive dd.