The tile says it all....I am just waiting. I am waiting to start AF so that I can start BCPs. This seems straight forward en ought but....no AF in sight. I am on CD 42. UGH!!! At this point I feel like it is never coming. I am supposed to cycle in January but everything hinges on the start of AF, I hope,hope, hope it will be here soon.
Having one failed cycle has made me calmer about the whole process believe it or not. It's no longer the unknown...I know what I am dealing with. I am taking the time I have now to get my ducks in a row before the next cycle starts because I already know that once I start stims things get pretty darn busy. The one very surprising side effect I have had from my failed cycle is less of a desire for my girl. I don't know if it is a defense mechanism or I really don't care quite so much anymore but I am not feeling desperation for a girl only a bit of longing. We'll still go through with this cycle but I can't say for sure how far I want to take this anymore. I'll cross my fingers that it works and I won't have to deal with the question at all. :)