Going through IVF/PGD in hopes of my DD

September 2009 - Posts

• Drum roll please........

  ta dah!!!! I'm officially 12 wks, 3 mo, out of the first trimester!!!! I've been waiting a long time to write this post! I still sometimes don't believe I will have my DD in the Spring. I feel like I have waited a lifetime and I will finally get to meet her! I'm so excited & look forward to the 18wk mark when we can "Officially" find out we are having a girl & share that news!!! Posted Sep 23 2009, 11:25 AM by gsbabies with 4 comment(s)

• A note on complaining!

  Okay, so I feel as if I've been "Debbie Downer" lately and doing a bit of complaining. I just wanted to say that I don't want anyone to feel as if I am not completely grateful. I have said from the begining of my journey that I would do just about anything to get my daughter. I think this is true for most of us on the HT board. I mean we are already saying we are going to go through shots, probes, traveling (in some cases), crotch rockets, and the worst part.....waiting when we sign up for HT!! Now, I would grow a third eye, wear a string bikini in the snow, not shower for a year, whatever it took HOWEVER I never said I wouldn't complain about it!! (ha!) So, even though I thow a few "woe is me" things out there and complain from time to time I will say it is all totally worth it! I'm pregnant with my daughter and I will get to hold her in a matter of months. I am thankful that God breathed life into her and allowed that one special embryo to stick with me and grow. I'm in awe! Posted Sep 18 2009, 04:10 PM by gsbabies with 4 comment(s)

• Does the fun ever end?

  ....I mean start! Good grief! My OB called me yesterday to let me know I had an abnormal lab. Holy Cow!!! I thought all they checked for was STDs and stuff like that....I was thinking what the crap???? It turns out I tested pos for Group B Strep & have a bladder infection b/c of it. Luckily, I have no symptoms of the bladder infection but I am on antibiotics. I, once again, looked online and apparently this lovely duo puts me at a "higher risk" for....a multitude of bad things. Urghhhhhh...... I have never tested pos for GBS so I am totally freaked out. So, here I was googling GBS & UTI and getting all of this not so good info and DH came home (for only 15 mins) before he headed out of town for a few days for work. I showed him the websites and then went to the bathroom. Then I saw BLOOD when I wiped and in the toliet. I couldn't believe it. I was just kicked while I was down! DH had to get out the door so he left and I was left to go run and get my antibiotics. I knew that at the last u/s she had seen a little SCH so I was hoping that was all this was. Luckily, I've no other bleeding after that. It was a small amt. but not what I needed to see yesterday! I just want an uneventful pregnancy. It seems like I've already had too much "stuff" going on and I'll just be 11 wks tomorrow!! To think I'm still not even a third of the way there!! Oh my!! I hope this is the last of the craziness. I just want to be normal!! PS. I've been taking Zofran, too! It's helping somewhat.... Posted Sep 15 2009, 04:01 PM by gsbabies with 2 comment(s)

• Goodbye Morning Sickness, Hello Afternoon/Evening Sickness!!

  So, I forgot to mention that at my U/S on Thurs that my Dr. didn't see my orginal two SCHs. She said they were probably absorbed. She did find a different tiny one though. She wasn't concerned and I haven't had any further bleeding so I'm not concerned either. I am over morning sickness (for the most part). I now have afternoon/evening sickness. It has been like this for the past week almost. Around 3:30 or 4 I feel awful. I never know if I should eat or not. It never matters I throw up anyway. Ughhh. It is so nasty. I just want to feel normal again!! I also can't make it through an entire day without napping. Sat. I went shopping with my mom and "missed" my nap and I was in the bed at 8:30. Ridiculous!! So, for the most part I go around the house in gym shorts and tshirts (nice, I know). I wore some of my "bigger/fat" shorts this week when I actually went somewhere. But all of the sudden it was Sun and I just found out how huge I am now! At the Dr.'s I had gained only 1 lbs. but it seems like stuff is shifting around. My middle is definately getting larger. I was struggling to find something that didn't cut off my circulation for church. Also, since my boobs are getting bigger my shirts don't fit exactly right. Gripes. The in between "fat" stage is always the worst. I remember that from DS1 and DS2. My house is slowing coming back to life. It was such a mess that it will take some time to get cleaned back up. DH is out of town for M-W so I'm scared! I am so sick in the afternoons and can't imagine doing it without his help. We have someone coming in from out of town in one week so I have to get things back to normal in the house! I feel so overwhelmed. Yet, as I say that, if that is what it takes to get my little girl then I'll press onward!! Posted Sep 14 2009, 08:31 AM by gsbabies with 3 comment(s)

• 10 wk ultrasound

  Yesterday was my 10 wk u/s. I got to see my little girl dancing around in there again. I can't believe how much movement is going on and I don't even feel it! The heartbeat was 150something which she said was right where it should be. I think I said before it gets the highest around 9 wks and then goes down and stays stable for the rest of the pregnancy. She measured 10wks and I was 10wks and 1 day so she has caught up some since she was about 3 days off for the first couple of u/s. My OB said with so much movement and such a nice hb that she really thinks I'm "out of the risk of miscarriage". I couldn't believe me ears!! Although I won't feel as relaxed as I will when I am officially in the 2nd trimester. I told my OB at the very begining that we did PGD for gender. I just wanted to be honest and if I could tell she was going to have a problem with it I would just get a new Dr. Anyway, so my OB is always saying things like "her heartbeat is great", "there's her little heart", "Did you see her hands?". It seems beyond weird for someone to call the baby a she or a her! I like it though because it makes it seem so real!! So, I hate to beat a dead horse but I have to say again...life without crotch rockets is a better life to live!! I am so very happy that those things are no longer part of my nighttime routine. YIPPI!!! My next appt is in 4wks. I think it is just a reg. appt. We aren't doing any early testing. I don't want to worry myself with things I can't change and have to consume my life with the chance of a false pos. or a false neg. I'm only 28 so my chances of any crazy problems are low. What will be will be. I know she's a girl. I will have to deal with the rest.     Posted Sep 11 2009, 01:04 PM by gsbabies with 2 comment(s)

• Goodbye Crotch Rockets!!!!

  Last night was officially my last night of crotch rockets!!!! Those disgusting estro/progest suppositories were driving me crazy. I would have rather done the PIO shots and stopped the supps. They were bad to begin with but when I got my refill from a local pharmacy the supps were even worse. They would not stay in. It was alway a race to get from the sink after washing my hands to the bed. YUCK!!!!! My morning sickness is still not great but a vast improvement. She had me double the meds and it seemed to help. I took the boys to Meet the Teacher yesterday in the morning and I thought I wasn't going to make it. I rarely leave the house now and NEVER in the early morning!! This was a bit scary. So, I'm officially now 10 wks. I will go to the OB tomorrow for a "regular" appt. and update on that later. Wow....honestly I still can't believe I'm here. I can't believe my daughter will be here in a matter of months. Thank you God!!!! Posted Sep 09 2009, 08:38 AM by gsbabies with 2 comment(s)

• A trip to the ER

  So, I went to the ER on Friday. I had some bleeding and my OBGYN's office was already closed. When I wiped after going "potty" I had seen blood. I wiped 2 other times and there was more blood. I didn't really have anything after that but the dr. still wanted me to go in. I was thankful that I didn't have any cramping like I had during the first bleeding scare. Since this has happened before it made me even more nervous. I had bleeding with DS1 once and went on to have a beautiful baby. I didn't know what to think of having bleeding twice! We finally got an U/S and saw a tiny baby girl with a heartbeat of 181! It was great. The tech had said that around 9 wks the heartbeat goes up to about 180 and then continues to decrease after that until it reaches about 140-150 and then remains around that for the rest of the pregnancy. Then she checked the heartbeat and there it was 181 perfectly what she had predicted! We also got to see her "dancing" in there. Her little arms were moving about and she was twisting back and forth! She's going to be a dancer!(ballerina hopefully, not exotic!!) So, they found 2 subchronic hemorrages (I know, it isn't spelled right, don't feel like looking it up). My dr. called me today and said since I've had no further bleeding that she isn't worried about it. We will just keep an eye on them and as long as the baby's hb is good there's nothing to worry about at this time. I will go to the OB on Thurs and hear the hb then. Not sure if it will be a detailed u/s or not but excited to get to check on her!  Tomorrow is 10 wks and I am thrilled! Only 2 more weeks to go and I'm out of the scary 1st trimester!! YIPPI!!!!! Posted Sep 08 2009, 08:02 PM by gsbabies with 1 comment(s)

• update 9wks

  So, I'm still feeling absolutely terrible! My house continues to be in shambles b/c I simply don't have the energy to clean anything and all the boys do is mess it up. Plus, if I drop the ball on cleaning DH never seems to pick it up. He can tolerate a much bigger mess than me! I'm disgusted by the state of our house but don't have it in me to do anything about it. I'm so tired & the other day I went about 24 hrs with only some crackers staying down. I got some stronger stuff from my doctor and it seemed to help a little today. DH is out of town so my mom volunteered to come over and make dinner and put the boys to sleep. I basically feel useless it is horrible!! I think the worst thing is with DS1 I was on bedrest for a couple of months and felt completely fine. It was so frustrating to feel perfectly fine, never tired, and still have to lay in bed all day. Now, I feel like I NEED to lay in bed all day and yet am expected to take care of an almost 4 yr old and a 2 yr old. It just doesn't make sense! Also, I was happy that I got myself out of the house and hosted a baby shower on Sun. It is the first girl shower I've ever hosted. I just haven't had it in me to do it for a girl. I only was able to do it this time b/c I know that I have my own little girl inside! I know how awful that sounds but honestly it is the truth! So, I'm just ready to get over the nasty part of pregnancy and start feeling nice and buying lots of pink! Posted Sep 02 2009, 06:34 PM by gsbabies with 2 comment(s)